Stumbling Through Enlightenment

This week we check in with Jason about the lack of light and his sleep patterns. Jason has been struggling with the beginning of the winter season. Through conversation we discover that part of that is light related but also trauma echoes from Holidays past. Jason and Edward discuss lighting options and other possible solutions. The conversation takes some interesting turns and has a few tangents,...

Edward starts us out this week with news of his Aunt Dying. Edward explains what he’s going through in the grieving process. Jason shares with us that he has difficulty understanding people’s process because he doesn’t go through the same process of grieving. Jason and Edward discuss the differences between grieving processes especially around natural progression towards death. Edward and Jason di...

This week Edward shares with us some of the struggles he’s been having, especially with housekeeping and doing his dishes. Edward mourns the loss of his dishwasher as it hasn’t worked in about a month. Edward shares with us his mindset and his spiraling into an ever-darkening area of frustration with himself. Jason and Edward dissect the reasoning and thought patterns that have Edward stuck in a s...

Jason starts us off this week sharing with us the dip in his current mood, which he attributes to the lack of light. Jason lets us know that this is worse than he’s felt it prior. Jason feels that because he has been hunting and keeping better track of the sunsets, he has been made more aware of the waning light. As the conversation develops, Jason wonders if it is just the lack of light, or parti...

This week we start out with Edward sharing how his Ebay sales have dropped off significantly. Edward runs a small reselling business and finds that this 4th quarter, which should be booming, is actually coming up flat. Edward shares how in the groups and communities he is not the only one that is experiencing this, yet he still finds it surprising. Edward and Jason discuss how along with some frus...

This week Jason starts us off with the story of one of his oldest possessions. Jason has a shotgun that allowed him to escape some of his childhood trauma. This year his shot gun broke. Jason was surprised by how he felt about this. Not one for attachments to objects, Jason finds himself more upset than he realized he would be. Edward assists Jason to unpack the story of this firearm and what it m...

Edward checks in this week about the darkness and how challenging it has been on the rainy and overcast days. Jason and Edward discuss light therapy which assists in resetting the circadian rhythm of the body. Edward mentions that he has been thinking about tanning due to a friend suggesting it years ago. As fate would have it, the friend was Jason and the two discuss the benefits Jason discovered...

This week’s episode starts off with Jason telling us about an unforeseen shift in his relationship with his oldest son. After a recent family hunting trip an unforeseen accident with Jason’s phone instigates a situation where Jason offers his son a short ride to retrieve the phone. To his surprise his son says yes, and this marks a shift in the dynamic for apparently no reason. Over the last coupl...

Edward starts off this week's episode with the story of anxiety over a new job offer. After some work around anxiety and some PTSD, Edward decides to take a job as an Executive Chef. Once he does however, he is thrown into another bout of panic attacks and anxiety that he doesn't seem to be able to work through. Jason provides us with some much-needed clarity. It appears what Edward is experiencin...

This week we start off with Edward being "on cloud 9". With the exception of the two years Covid was rampant, every year Edward has spent 3 days as a co-coordinator for an area at a large agricultural fair. Edward shares his emotions and experiences of being back in a space he enjoys. He also shares with us that when he was recruited as a co-coordinator there was an unhealthy interaction with the...

This week we are doing something a little different. Edward and his sister have spoken at length about the differences in their perceptions and experiences growing up. Over the Course of a few sessions Jason Interviewed both Edward and his sister separately and then together. This is the result of those interviews. Lead by Jason Edward and Jacinta share their most vivid memories, different experie...

Jason Checks in this week about the stress and additional challenges that have been cropping up at home. Jason's wife Jessica has started being in the middle of the rift between Jason and his son. This has had consequences and has made things at home more tense. Jason and Edward discuss strategies and possible courses of action, but in the end, Edward shares the story of how his father and him wer...

In our Check in this week Edward talks about his experience with the Yard Sale. The only issue is he hasn’t gotten rid of the items that didn’t sell. Jason and Edward talk through, not only his experience with the Yard Sale itself, but the sticking points that is keeping Edward holding on to the leftover items. Edward and Jason reference a previous episode when they took a Deep Dive into hoarding,...

This week’s Check In is a wild ride starting with Edward’s story about reaffirming some boundaries. Jason and Edward talk about boundary maintenance, especially where Edward’s mother is concerned. One of the ways Edward has been working through his PTSD in areas of his life is through a process with alternative medicines. This leads to a conversation that seems wildly off topic until pieces are pu...

Jason starts us off this week with a conversation about his last therapy appointment around his abandonment issues. Jason has worked with the same therapist for 5 years and finds himself having a different sort of breakthrough when she gives him permission to tell his oldest about his past trauma. The breakthrough comes in the form of his receptiveness to the advice and realization that he has bee...

This week Edward finds himself dealing with the rudest customer he has ever had while selling on Ebay. What started out as a normal transaction quickly escalated Edward receiving a series of emails that went from bad to worse. Edward tells the story of his harrowing weekend complete with allegations about lying and hyped-up shipping costs. Edward tells us how he succeeded in staying customer servi...

Episode 111 – Interview with Julie Bryan Founder of AJB Joy Tribe This week Edward starts us out with an update on his keto lifestyle. Edward has been eating Keto for about a month and a half. Upon Returning to his doctor, he got the good news that he had lost 21 pounds, and his blood pressure had significantly dropped. The only problem? Edward misses ice cream. Edward discusses with us his plan f...

We start this week’s episode as Jason checks in with us about some work on abandonment he is feeling. Jason recently went on vacation and during that time some abandonment issues were brought into sharp focus for him, especially regarding his oldest son. Jason shares with us some of what he has been going through and how he has been handling it. Jason and Edward discuss what it is like to be raisi...

This Week’s Check In finds Jason at the tail end of vacation. Historically Jason has had some questionable luck with jobs when going on vacation and the experience has left him more than a little anxious. Despite the past, Jason worked through some of his former challenges and enjoyed his vacation. Jason discusses with us his anxiety and how he delt with it, spending time with family that came to...

Edward is starting to recuperate after his ling stint of overtime. With his healthier mindset Edward has decided to start following a Keto lifestyle. Edward shares with us his success in the past with the Atkins diet and has decided to do something similar, by cutting out simple processed carbs, and sugars. Having reached a weight that was uncomfortable for himself he is excited to have lost weigh...

This week finds Jason in a space where he has felt good, but at the same time has found it challenging keeping his inner monologue inside. A new dose of medication has allowed Jason to detach from the emotional connection to his recurring dream sequence so that he can evolve and do work around it. As the medication has started to slow down however, he finds that he is left with a complicated set o...

We start off this Episode with Edward telling us about a short vacation and road trip he recently took to Northern New York. Edward and his sister along with some other family visit the area where his father was born to see the family homestead and learn some of the history. Edward rounds up his adventure heading out to Niagara Falls to check the experience off his bucket list. This week we sit do...

We’re Back! This is the first Episode of Season 3. Jason and Edward talk about how their summers were. Both Jason and Edward enjoyed different parts of their summer, and both learned lessons along the way. Join us in this episode as we catch up on what happened over the last few months.

We start off this week with Edward talking about a needed vacation. Edward spent some time with family at an aunt’s lake house and had a special visit with an aunt and uncle from Texas. Edward speaks about the general family dynamic and dealing with an aunt that has dementia. Jason asks about anxiety going into the family event. Edward tells us about how his internalization from his childhood has...

In this Episode we start out talking about Lorri’s and Jason’s home improvement projects. How we are feeling about the Corona Virus and our states opening. We also talk a little about how our habits and live have been adapted to the virus and what that may look like going forward. Edward talks about a car shopping adventure, what happens when golfing plans go awry, and we finish with the importanc...