Still Figuring It Out

In this episode, I catch you guys up on my life and what I've been up to. Between some traveling, getting wine drunk, and learning to relax, I come to terms with how I've really been feeling. To be honest, my mental health is not loving me. I go into the topic of the idea that we have to have it all and be "on" all the time. How society and comparing ourselves to others influence us as well as lea...

In this episode, I talk about my hectic work week, barely having time to breathe, and why I'm taking a break from drinking. I then go into the topic for this week, the idea of trying to find my "home." Whether it be physical, family, or relationship-wise, I never felt like I had a home in any of those. It took writing it down for me to see it was starting to come along all this time. The beauty of...

In this episode, I talk about being a beer slut, not wanting to work out while eating like garbage, and my plans for a rainy Fourth of July weekend. I then go into a new segment: things we need to normalize better, for this episode, it's your 20's. I talk about how my 20's so far have felt like a roller coaster, comparing ourselves and our journeys to others, and list off some things that are tota...

Happy summer, I can't believe I've made it halfway through the year. I would like to thank the alcohol. In this episode, I talk about a really fun past weekend, hating my body, and getting back into reading. I then tell you what books you should read this summer (myself included) and have a little book club moment with you guys. I've always loved reading in the summer because I love to overly roma...

In this episode, we're getting emotional so bring all the tissues. I talk about the stressful and overwhelming time I've been having. My week of drinking, spending time with loved ones, a zoo visit, and a Taylor announcement that made it all better. I then go into the topic of why I don't celebrate Father's Day. I talk about my childhood and growing up with an alcoholic and abusive father, how it'...

In this episode, we are very chatty. I talk about my long week, hot days, surviving life, and taking a break from the debit card. I then go into the topic for this episode. The big question: does everything happen for a reason? Do the things that happen to us in life the good and bad happen for a bigger reason? I discuss my own views and opinions based on my life and events and encourage you to th...

Welcome to season 2 you guys. In this episode I tell you tales of nostalgia. I go back to the bar and movie theater and barely make it through the work week because of damn mercury in retrograde. I then go into the topic of this episode, are these books worth the read? I tell you about the author and these books, so the choice is up to you. Will I drain your bank accounts or save you money, you’ll...

You guys.....we made it to a whole year. A year of laughs, cries, honesty, and much-needed professional therapy. I can't believe how much has happened and what's to come. Thank you for sticking with me on this journey. This episode is no different than the rest. We get honest, we swear, and I even cry. It's time to celebrate not only one year of this podcast but our beautiful bodies that have alwa...

I'm back you guys, and I'm better than ever (at least, that's what I'm telling myself). In this episode, we get deep and honest. I tell you why I've been away for the past two weeks, including my second Covid shot and feeling depressed and uninspired. I catch you up on what I've been doing, including apartment updates, drinking, and the hellhole of my job. I then go into the topic of regrets. I re...

Sometimes you have a bad week and you need to talk about it. That's what I did in this week's episode. With a glass of cider in hand, and no notes to go by, I recap my draining week and really dig deep into how I'm feeling lately. We get a little emotional and sad but at the end of the day, this is me. I'm not here to provide you with false ideas of who I am, I am a person who is going through it,...

In this episode we're getting very chatty. I catch you up on my stressful past week, how I'm learning to prioritize things in my life amidst the chaos, and telling you to calm the fuck down. I tell you about an exquisite mirror I recently purchased as well as my experience with getting my first dose of the Covid vaccine. I then go into this new segment where I talk about an author you need to know...

In this episode I tell you about how I went from a peaceful last weekend and a good start of my week to an overall hectic and stressful end of the week into the weekend. I talk about how I've been having a hard time trying to juggle two jobs while still balancing my personal and social life. I then go into the topic of burnout. How it came to be for me, why society glamorizes overworking, hustle c...

In this episode we get very emotional and thought-provoking. I talk about my reasoning for my week off which included my best friends Taylor Swift themed birthday weekend,  finishing the beer summit as well as showing my age in my knees and the fright of finally getting back into writing for fun and Taylor making me revert back to my 14-year-old self with her re-recording of "Fearless." I the...

In this episode I get a little emotional talking about how I really feel about my new "normal" with my new job while still being at my other one. All the internal fear, guilt, and stress I have over it during my first official week. I talk about feeling burnt out and like a failure but remind myself that bad weeks are a thing. I then go into my last part of my thesis this week which feels very bit...

In this episode I talk about my long and stressful week as usual. I tell my manager about my new job and how some friends are snitches and also how I'm really feeling about this new change. I have some bad skin days and call out Zara for their sizing. I then continue with reading my thesis from where I left off next week. After being threatened by a pair of private detectives who know both their p...

In this episode I talk about some exciting new updates and changes that have come into my life recently as well as getting to do some fun things over the weekend and how that can make a rather long week so much better. I then continue with reading my thesis from where I left off last week. After Mauve realizes her partner in life and crime James's past is slowly catching up to him again she has a...

In this episode I talk about going from a whole week feeling like one big Monday to my excitement about having the house to myself for the weekend and my ~crazy~ plans. I then go into this fun and new segment that I'll be doing this entire month where I basically read my entire thesis to you throughout the next few episodes. Titled by a song that deserved a music video, "Getaway Car" tells the sto...

In this episode I talk about getting back into a routine after my vacation, how my birthday went, and some rejections and hopeful opportunities while job hunting. I then go into the book of the month which is a bit different this time around. I read some essays from the book “Modern Love” edited by Daniel Jones and get a little sad and laughing. I want to thank you from the bottom of my heart for...

In this episode we're getting emotional, so grab your tissues. This week, I talk about how my vacation is going and the differences I see in my mental health for the better. I then talk about my upcoming birthday and how I really feel about getting older and accepting the fact that age is only a number. I read through some old articles and a journal entry I wrote 3 and 5 years ago and reflect. I t...

Happy Valentine’s Day! In this episode I talk about having a “vacation” from work and what I plan to do. I talk about finally having a fun Valentines’s Day weekend starting with a Galentine’s Day party with friends and going on a triple date. I then talk about the idea of this holiday and my honest thoughts as well as what you can do on this holiday whether you’re in a relationship, single, going...

Happy February, the month of “love.” In this episode I kick off the months theme of love with what happens when a love...fades away. When a relationship runs its course and what to do to get through it. I end by reading two different articles about a guy I “dated” and show how less than a year later the feelings can change for the better.

In this episode I talk about how a good week can still be good even with a shitty end. I keep on track with my new fitness routine, complete my dry January, and am on track with my reading. I then get into a very exciting and possibly new segment. What if I told you “Tolerate It” by Taylor Swift was inspired by the book “Rebecca” by Daphne Du Maurier? I take you through the novel by providing actu...

In this episode I talk about finally having a good week, my fitness journey, and why we need to treat ourselves. I talk about a historical moment by having the first female Vice President and then go into the topic. I talk about how simple things women can do now like wear pants and go shopping alone was unheard of and even illegal 100 years ago. I discuss the blatant racism women face on a daily...

In this episode I do a long chat and catch you up on all things stress with work, thrifting, weight change, and trying to be productive. I then ask the question of this topic today: what really are the best year of your life? While some say high school or college were their “peak years,” some like myself not so much. I talk about why this question is far fetched, my own experiences with trying to...

Welcome to 2021 I can’t believe I made it. In this episode I talk about my honest reason for taking a week off, discuss some mantras I’m manifesting for this year because resolutions are stupid. I then go into the idea on how we need to be kinder to ourselves and how learning to forgive others as well as ourselves can benefit us so much more in the long run. If you’ve been here from the beginning...