Still Coloring with Toni Collier

How do you forgive someone who cheated on you… especially when they don’t deserve it? Buckle uppppp y’all. I’m nothing if not honest; you know this about me. So I’m letting you into more of my healing journey through the repeated affairs of my ex-husband. I’ve endured betrayal and infidelity, which led to our divorce – and yet, I’ve forgiven him. Yes, really. I hear you: “Toni, but HOW?!” Let’s ta...

Why aren’t your prayers working… even when you’re trying your best? You guys, I’ve been experiencing a whole lot of spiritual warfare like you wouldn’t believe. I’ve felt desperate, I’ve sought out deliverance, and it’s led me to ask a deeper question: what am I really asking God for… and why?  I think there’s something that gets in the way of our prayers, and it’s probably not what you think. Let...

The Still Coloring Podcast is officially BACK!! And a lot has changed. I live in a new city, I’ve got a new podcast studio… and I’ve been enduring a really hard season spiritually. The Lord is taking me to new places and I’m taking you along with me. There’s healing in store for all of us and I’m excited about it.  My new podcasting rhythm will be weekly Wednesday episodes. Hope y’all are ready to...

Well, hello , friends!! We’ve done it. We’ve reached the final episode of Season 7 and I’m just so grateful. I hope you’ve enjoyed this “Toni and Friends” season full of some of my favorite people. They got me through this horrific season of betrayal, and through our conversations I trust the Lord has helped you to see how you can boldly step out of hiding to find the godly community that will bri...

Today’s guest is Moriah Smallbone, my co-host of the "Unshakeable Moxie" video series with Our Daily Bread Ministries! We met in a pretty unconventional way (basically creative-speed-dating style), yet there’s always been such an ease and sense of normalcy in our friendship. Goodness knows Moriah has seen me through the good, the bad, and the downright horrific these last few years. And it’s been...

[NOTE: Thanks for hanging with us through some audio issues with this episode! If you're having a hard time following, go watch the episode on YouTube where you can turn on captions – that really helps!] Okay y’all KNOW I’ve become a Burn Boot Camp obsessed gym girly – I would not have gotten through this horrific season of divorce without caring for my body (and building a really sweet community)...

Well, you guys, I apologize in advance for the snot-cry-filled audio of this episode, but that’s how you know we went REAL DEEP on the topic of sitting with your friends in grief. Eryn Eddy Adkins and I have been friends for nearly a decade. She knew me when I was freshly divorced and then remarried… and now divorced again. It’s so sweet to have a friend who has seen you through all the seasons of...

I’m so excited for you to hear this conversation today with my friend Debra Fileta. Debra and I have been ministry friends for a while, but she’s played a unique and important role in my healing journey over the past year as it relates to wise counsel around numbing through alcohol. At the end of 2024, I made a decision that alcohol could not be a part of my life any more, and Debra is holding me...

You ever stumble into a friendship? You meet someone randomly or have a brief encounter with them and then realize that you’ve actually found a meaningful connection? That’s how I feel about Rachel Awtrey.  Rachel had me on her podcast back in 2023 and asked about my marriage during the interview, not knowing I was in the early stages of going through my divorce. After the mics stopped recording,...

Jo Saxton and Lisa Whittle are who I call my “allies in pain.” They are like big sisters to me, lifelines whom I can text at any time for advice. The idea of “withness” that I talk about in my new book, someone’s presence with you in your pain – they have lived it out so beautifully. And they were relentless in making sure that I told the truth about the betrayal I experienced in my marriage two y...

Jackie Hill Perry and Megan Ashley became friends within the last few years and it’s not an exaggeration to say that their friendship has literally blessed millions. They were once strangers but now they spur each other on in ministry, pray together, keep each other accountable, and fight for unity… and I think we can all learn something from the way they prioritize their friendship. There’s a lot...

Well, hey friends! It’s been a minute! The last season of Still Coloring hit your feeds last summer, and a whole lot has happened since then. Last season, every episode you heard was just me, recounting all of the ways God (and His people) showed up for me in the darkest moments of my life. It was vulnerable and tear-filled and I hope so very encouraging to anyone going through something similar. ...

God is redeeming everything – the Still Coloring podcast is BACK! We’re calling this season “Toni + Friends” and we’re talking about the importance of building deep and intentional community instead of hiding from our pain. In this season’s episodes, you’ll hear conversations about godly adult friendships, pursuing purpose, and walking through grief together. If you want even more on these topics,...

To finish out Season 6 of the Still Coloring podcast, I want to give you some snippets of conversations I’ve had recently with three voices I trust to speak into my own life and grief – Dr. Curt Thompson, Dr. Alison Cook, and Debra Fileta. These three licensed professional counselors have some good stuff to share, and I hope you find hope and direction in what they have to say. It’s real good, I p...

I believe that when God brings you to a Red Sea moment in your life, He’s going to part it. We serve the God of miracles, and He’s still working miracles every single day. And no matter what it is you’re facing, He has a plan to bring you back to His goodness. The pain you feel, the heartache you’re enduring, the loneliness and depression and sadness… not one bit of it will be wasted in the story...

I want to tell y’all the story of one of my favorite scriptures, Psalm 91. It was given to me by a deacon in a church during a church service that I barely wanted to be at, and at the time it didn’t mean a thing to me. But it came alive to me during a “spiritual encounter” weekend retreat where I was finally pursuing being a follower of God and not just a fan. I realized that God’s word comes most...

I have a tendency to live in a scarcity mindset about money, that there’s not going to be enough of it, and when I do have it, I might lose it. Maybe you feel that way too. Finances can impact what we believe about God, but goodness, do I have some God winks to tell you about the ways He’s provided in this season of my divorce. I was scared to take time off the stage because speaking is how I make...

One thing that has been super consistent in this season of my life is how my community has SHOWN UP for me. God saw fit that out-of-town friends would physically be down the hall when I got the worst phone call of my life. They’ve comforted me and helped me discover things about myself that I hadn’t realized before. My community furnished my new home and reminded me of my purpose, coaching me thro...

I tell people all the time to “embrace your pain,” and now coming out of the devastation of the past six months, I have to call myself to that same standard. So, I’m sharing the story of what God has brought me through.  This season is called “God Winks, Moxie and Rescue,” and I’ll tell you more about those things in this first episode, starting with a look at the parable of the wandering sheep in...

I am going to bring you all the way in. This is probably going to be my most vulnerable series of podcast episodes ever because it's me processing through some of the hardest moments I've ever had to walk through. In Season 6, you'll hear me shining a light on how God came for me in my darkest moments at the end of 2023. And how He's coming for you too, friend. God is still on the move. I hope thi...

We decided this season needed one final episode, and it’s with Titania Jordan of Bark Technologies! Let’s go deep on the topic of navigating the online world with our kids. I’m not even exaggerating when I tell you that Bark is absolutely revolutionary and has changed my life as a parent. Titania is mom to a high schooler, and she serves as the Chief Parent Officer and CMO of Bark. Today she share...

Today’s podcast guest, Kendall Mariah Tart, says she wants to authentically and unapologetically engage in conversations that are sometimes really uncomfortable, so we go there in this episode! Kendall is a self-described “modern southern housewife” with a husband in the active military and a beautiful adopted daughter who is Black. As a blonde-haired white woman in America, Kendall has navigated...

Parenting is a treacherous journey – don’t we all know this to be true! But the beautiful thing is, we don’t have to do it alone. We shouldn’t do it alone. Today I talk with Heather MacFadyen, the founder of a brand and podcast called Don’t Mom Alone, about the idea of community. It can be awkward to seek out and pray specifically for, but we’ll be better parents if we find like-minded people to w...

Dr. Chinwé Williams is a licensed and board-certified therapist, speaker, author, and consultant, so you know what that means – today’s episode might feel like a free counseling session, and Y’ALL, it’s so good. I think she’s so brilliant. We talk about helping kids process through trauma and emotions, because Lord knows they come jam-packed with BIG feelings. We talk about re-parenting ourselves...

I’ve got a real-life friend with me today, my girl Wanda Mulzac! I just love her story and how she has pointed to God through the heartache and the joy of their journey to parenthood. We talk about infertility today, which can be a really hard conversation in the church. Wanda and her husband now have 3 miracle babies through IVF, and we chat about what it’s like to navigate feeling extremely grat...