Queen Cattis: Finding my voice

Another very larpy episode because we love those. I am back with Dallas and this time we bring Linus, another larper who plays the baron Lucian and we speak about the chaos that has escalated for the season finale of this epic story!

The pod back from a long pause! This is a weird episode, but a very important one. Dallas is back along with another friend, Alex, who we LARP with. Alex is a trans man, and we discuss something that is rarely talked about but is something very relevant for trans people beginning their transistion, as well as people who just want some perspective on human sexuality. We discuss what arousal feels l...

Dallas is back, and again, we spek about the LARP we attend. (Live Action Role Play where we, together with a large group of players, play our vampire characters in a serial monthly format) We speak of how Dallas’ character Tempest’s backstory is becoming a great story in its own right, we speak in anticipation of the night’s session and then we come back and speak in retrospect....

Dallas is back, and after talking about her allyship and learning experiences on the topic. Then we gush about the Vampire LARP we spoke of last time, discussing my fourth and her second session. At the end we speak about a topic that needs to be talked about more. After very emotionally intense roleplay sessions, especially when it’s about LARPs, your character’s emotions could bleed...

If you hadn’t noticed, I love playing out emotions in roleplaying. In this episode I muse a bit about what crying brings me when I play. Spoiler: It’s awesome!

So I finally have my friend Dallas on an episode, and in the same room no less! Dallas has finally joined the wonderful world of roleplaying and she starts on the deep side of the pool with a vampire larp (Live action roleplay) set in the World of Darkness using setting from Vampire the Masquerade, 5th edition. Her character, the toreador Tempest Thorne finally gets to meet my noseferatu Emily Cor...

This is a very special episode, and, as promised, all about roleplaying. My friend Nicole who I roleplay with a lot is a quest, we talk about how we met and how our roleplaying dynamics work. She plays the character Juniper in the Tyranny of Dragons campaign I have mentioned a few times on this podcast. She also interviews my character Sapphire, which was a lot of fun! Enjoy!

I speak about something very happy going on in Sweden right now, with state funded transphobia. But I also speak of the silver lining and the things that help us through it. Trigger warning; talk of suicide.

I speak about a cool transition related dream I had last night, and the interesting conclusion I drew from it. I also talk about a bit of a hot-take; I think the the hunt for main character syndrome in TTRPGs has gone way too far.

We’re all in this world together. In this episode I give my love to the wonderful loud allies of trans people, and, by extension, every othered and villfiied minority. I also speak of the loud toxic minority in my favorite hobby – gatekeepers in roleplaying. Can I have a boo and a hiss?

I talk about love and sexuality, both transition-related and roleplay related. I speak about what I think of labels when it comes to sexual preferences and what transitioning has done to mine. I speak about a romance-related cunundrum I am experiencing at the moment, something I would like people to talk more about, since romance in TTRPGs can be quite beautiful.

I talk about the chemical progress of my Hormone Replacement Therapy as the real me is “Entering the world”. I also speak about how I feel like some limitations to freedom can help make roleplaying games more immerisve, I use my own project as an example.

In this one I give a little rant. I often get asked what I would like cis people knew about the trans experience and here it is. A lot of even well emaning cis people have trouble with this, but PLEASE make an effort to understand – REALLY understand the nature of being NOT BECOMING trans. I later tie it into how roleplaying games have helped me and how you as a roleplayer can be proud of yo...

I am back from summer holiday and I was blown away by how much my voice has changed since I started this podcast! I also speak about how culture in roleplaying games has improved my experience. I read a scene I wrote down from the session I played from the One Ring roleplaying game, read like an audio book to showcase my progress in voice work. Esmeralda Took tossed and turned, sleep was an elusiv...

I am taking two weeks off, but enjoy this backstory of Sophilde, the character that was interviewed in the previous episode. I really like her story, but keep in mind, it is quite dark and I would like warn about fictional suicidal thoughts – if these are triggering to you, please skip this episode. Be well, and have a great summer! Art by  http://minimi.artstation.com

I go into character and answer some interview-questions from roleplayingtips.com. I talk as Sophlide, my problematic storm sorceress. Next week I will give you her backstory. Enjoy!

No roleplay talk today. Just wonderful wonderful news about me and my transition. I will be getting diagnosed, I am feeling more free in my voice, and pride, oh my gosh pride. Listen for some pure trans joy, and of course a sonnet. This sonnet. The strides I’ve taken cannot be denied, Look down the depth from whence I had to rise, The pain I’ve felt, the tears that I have cried, Were w...

I performed at my friends recital of her new book, where I portrayed Queen Mariel, a character from the upcoming fantasy novel Threads of Blood by Dallas De Fée. I had a great time, and I want to describe the similarities between immersive roleplaying and acting as it became very clear to me. There is also a trans story in there, since I helped Dallas with some sensitivity reading from a trans per...

I have wonderful news about my trans journey, followed by wonderful news about my hobby. I have just just started LARPing Vampire: the Masquerade again! I am so happy I could cry. Be warned, in this episode I drink champagne and eat cheese so there is some nomming to be heard.

I hit a milestone, people. Someone tried to pick me up in a bar! And I remained completely and utterly oblivious until my friend pointed it out afterwards. After talking a bit about that I re-visit the idea of playing a child in TTRPGs as I talk a bit about my new sassy tabazi teenages Rashakaxia. No you are not pronouncing it correctly, just say Kaxi if you find that easier, Tabaxi names can be a...

I rehearse my voice work, as was the entire point of this podcast, and then I conclude the backstory of my paladin of friendship I began in episode 32 . There will be more episodes as I have started writing chapters of our game sessions. Do you want more of these? Tell me and it just might happen. Copyright free track Maestro Tlakaelel by Jesse Gallagher -aquired on Youtube Studio Sound Library

This is a quick episode where I talk about my first laser hair removal treatment, followed by how the note taking of my roleplaying with the purpose of recording the story for prosperity has effected my immersion. Next week it’s back to story time!

So now this podcast is pretty much an audio book. I read two parts of my three part backstory for the character i play in the Tyranny of Dragons for Dungeons & Dragons 5E. I know I promised all three, but I got a little overwhelmed aloing the way. I will add the last part in a future episode, as well as the first couple of sessions. I created a really deep backstory and I hope it can bring you...

In this episode I try an experiment. I have been playing around with ChatGPT and roleplaying matierial, namely filling out parts of my backstory that my character should not have had complete control over. This has worked well for me but just for fun, I decided to see what happens if I let ChatGPT create the entire character fopr me and play it live as it emerges in front of me. Will it come to li...

Some more voicework, the squeaky-exercise and some goods news about me overpowering my voice dysphoria somewhat. I also announce that I am going back into LARPing (Live Action RolePlay) and talk about my process in making an interesting vampire character to play in a LARP. As my character is still being designed, any feedback from you might influence how I end up playing her, nudge nudge wink wink...