PMDM

Imposter syndrome is the voice in your head that tells you, ‘You don’t belong here.’ In this deeply personal episode of Private Memoirs of a Desperate Man, I unpack what it feels like to wrestle with self-doubt, even when you know you’re capable. From my struggles with stepping out of my comfort zone to the lessons I’ve learned along the way, I share the raw truth about facing imposter syndrome an...

Join Felix C. Arroyo, host of Private Memoirs of a Desperate Man (PMDM), as he shares powerful life lessons to kick off the new year with purpose and resilience. In this episode, Felix dives into the importance of building strong relationships, embracing failure, and mastering accountability to achieve personal growth and lasting success. Discover why self-love, a solid foundation, and listening t...

In this heartfelt episode of PMDM, Felix reflects on the second anniversary of his father's passing. Through an emotional monologue, he shares the journey of grief, the importance of forgiveness, and lessons learned about cherishing relationships. With personal anecdotes, unexpected moments of connection, and reflections on family, Felix opens up about finding grace, navigating unresolved feelings...

In this episode of Private Memoirs of a Desperate Man, host Felix explores the idea of "The Quiet Pivot"—those subtle, unassuming moments where we decide to change direction and transform our lives. Felix shares deeply personal stories about embracing growth, reevaluating goals, and letting go of the pressure to tie change to a specific time, like the New Year. With an emphasis on long-term progre...

Have you ever taken time to actually listen to the rain? To pay attention to how still it really is even though it's consistently pouring down from the sky? It resonates with me and in this episode I share just why.

In this episode, Felix reflects on the complex and relentless nature of money and its role in our lives. From the grind of earning to the challenges of saving, spending, and investing, money is an ever-present force, constantly shaping our daily actions. Felix acknowledges the evolution of money, from physical coins to digital currencies like Bitcoin, and the universal pursuit of financial freedom...

In this episode of PMDM ('Fractured'), host Felix C. Arroyo dives into the deep societal rifts revealed in the wake of Donald J. Trump's election victory. Felix explores the intricate tapestry of American identity, discussing the fears, hopes, and divisions that characterize our era. Through personal insights and thoughtful commentary, this episode examines the pivotal issues shaping the nation's...

Felix reflects on how the autumn season is a time of personal rebirth and creativity. Set amidst the backdrop of his father’s birthday and wedding anniversaries, he explores the deep emotional connections tied to this season. Through evocative storytelling, Felix delves into how these memories, along with his passion for hip hop discovered during his youth, shape his journey and identity over time...

In this deeply personal episode, I take a step back to reflect on the journey of growth, the lessons we learn from our past, and the ongoing challenge of balancing love, accountability, and grace. Life doesn’t always fit into neat, black-and-white lines—sometimes the past and present collide in ways that challenge us. Join me as I share my thoughts on what it means to navigate the complexities of...

In this episode, I dive deep into the mysterious world of dreams, focusing on recurring themes and the emotional impact they can have. I share a particularly vivid dream where I return to my childhood home, encounter a family I’ve never met, and a mysterious voice at the top of the stairs. Through these experiences, I reflect on the significance of dreams—are they windows into our unresolved emoti...

In this episode I share why staying focused on your task even when it starts to seem like it's the wrong decision can be the best thing you can do. At the end of the day it's all about perseverance within the scope of who you are and what you're comfortable with.

In this episode, I’m diving deep into one of those moments where patience runs out and people show you exactly who they are. Maya Angelou once said, “When someone shows you who they are, believe them,” and man, was I reminded of that today. I talk about the frustration of trying to stay grounded while dealing with the reality of holding others accountable. Sometimes, it feels like the only option...

Some days don't work out how I planned and it kills my drive. An interview did not go the way I wanted and I share my frustration.

Kick back and relax with me in this episode as I chat about the laid-back art of strategic productivity. Picture it like a lazy Sunday chess match—no stress, just smooth moves and smart planning. Music by "Karl Casey @ White Bat Audio" https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=g6hY7dB54bc&t=640s

As usual I am in deep thought, this time about childhood and my sisters. Music by "Karl Casey @ White Bat Audio" https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=g6hY7dB54bc&t=640s

There is a big shift with JMC and I'm excited for the future. Music by "Karl Casey @ White Bat Audio" https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=g6hY7dB54bc&t=640s

I just feel that, with today's solar eclipse, I wasted some time... Music by "Karl Casey @ White Bat Audio" https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=g6hY7dB54bc&t=640s

Turning 45 has brought to a familiar place of nostalgia and pensiveness. Music by "Karl Casey @ White Bat Audio" https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=g6hY7dB54bc&t=640s

My children have been putting me through the emotional ringer. I feel like I'm moving through time in so many ways... Music by "Karl Casey @ White Bat Audio" https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=g6hY7dB54bc&t=640s

There are times when negative vibrations try to shake the foundation of which you've built your house on. Wooooooooossssaaaaaahhhhh! Music by "Karl Casey @ White Bat Audio" https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=g6hY7dB54bc&t=640s

Have you ever thought about what your ancestors were thinking or going through? This may give you some perspective about your significance in this life. Music by "Karl Casey @ White Bat Audio" https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=g6hY7dB54bc&t=640s