Mess to Millions

I used to think I had to choose. Spiritual or successful. Purpose-driven or profitable. Heart-centered or wealthy. Like somehow wanting money would contaminate my mission. Like charging what I'm worth would make me less aligned. That belief kept me broke for years. And it wasn't even mine. In this episode, I'm dismantling the lie that spirituality and wealth are opposites—and making the case for w...

My daughter said something to me the other day that stopped me in my tracks: "Mom, you're a stay-at-home mom, right??" I run a multimillion-dollar business. I've been in Forbes. I wrote a book.  And my daughter thinks I'm a stay-at-home mom. That, my loves, is the goal. In this episode, I'm sharing exactly how I designed my business to work FOR my life as a mom... not the other way around. No...

The first time I hit a six-figure month, I got physically sick. Not from stress. From receiving. My body couldn't handle having that much money. Because somewhere deep inside, I didn't believe I was allowed to have it. We talk a lot about how to MAKE money. But nobody talks about why we push it away once it comes. Why we sabotage. Why we spend it as fast as we earn it. Why we feel guilty for havin...

Last week I told you how I got sober. Today I'm telling you what happened next. Five years without a drink. And here's what nobody tells you: I lost friends.  People stopped inviting me to things - mom trips involved wine, get-togethers felt weird when I wasn't drinking.  I realized I couldn't relate to people anymore. The conversations all felt surface level. People repeat themselves af...

I woke up one morning and couldn't remember if I had bathed my kids the night before. That was the lowest moment of my motherhood. And the moment everything changed. Drinking had always been part of my life. Sorority in college. Living abroad and trying local wines. Corporate recruitment culture with boozy lunches and happy hours. Marriage, where a cheese platter and a bottle of wine became our on...

"When Staying Is the Wrong Kind of Brave" - A Follow-Up to The Marriage That Was Killing Me After Episode 6 aired, my inbox exploded. Hundreds of messages from women saying, "It's like you were describing my life." So this episode is for you. The one who's dying inside while everyone thinks you're fine. The one who stopped caring because caring hurts too much. The one who's staying out of fear, no...

I used to make $29,000 a year. Twenty-nine thousand dollars as a nonprofit director with a master's degree, barely able to keep the lights on. But the real problem wasn't the salary. It was my money story. I believed men create wealth. Women support. So I stayed small, underpaid, and dependent—waiting for someone else to save me financially. Then cancer woke me up. Lying in that hospital bed, I re...

Sometimes the most loving thing you can do is let go. For years, I tried to make it work with someone on a completely different path. I craved depth and soul-level connection. He wanted surface and safety. Two unhealed hearts drinking away the disconnection, traveling to avoid the truth. The breaking point: my son said he was shocked that married people sleep in the same bed. We'd been in separate...

You know you're in trouble when you stop caring. When you shut down emotionally just to survive. I stopped singing. Stopped dancing. Stopped laughing. Started drinking just to tolerate being in the same room with my spouse. From the outside, my marriage looked perfect. Inside, I was dying. In the first few years, I tried. I begged for couples therapy for years. Got silence. We slept in separate ro...

September 2016. I'm staring at myself in the bathroom mirror at work, and I just know something is wrong. Not a lump. Not a symptom. Just... knowing. Six weeks later, I'm pulling off the freeway into a Panda Express parking lot, my doctor's words ringing in my ears: "You were right. This is cancer." Kidney cancer. At 36. A 3-inch mass that my body had been screaming at me about for months. But thi...

What if you traveled to 50 countries, had a massive awakening about your purpose, came back KNOWING what you were meant to do... and then completely ignored it because everyone told you it wasn't realistic? At 29, I quit my six-figure corporate job, backpacked through India, Southeast Asia, China, and spent 6 months camping through 18 countries in Africa. On that journey, I discovered life coachin...

What happens when you take all your childhood trauma, perfectionism, and people-pleasing... and aim it at climbing the corporate ladder? In this episode, I'm getting real about my years in corporate America, where I was praised for the exact same behaviors that were destroying me. Where "dedication" was code for ignoring my body's warning signals. Where I was building someone else's empire while s...

What happens when perfectionism finds a new target: your body? In this deeply personal episode, I'm taking you back to college, where I first encountered eating disorder culture disguised as "health" and "discipline." Surrounded by sorority girls throwing up in bathrooms, taking laxatives, and dating a bodybuilder boyfriend, I learned that controlling my body felt like the one thing I could contro...

What if the beliefs running your life aren’t even yours? What if they were programmed into you before you could even name them? In this raw and vulnerable first episode, I’m taking you back to where it all started: childhood. The little girl in New Mexico who learned that safety meant being perfect, that emotions were dangerous, and that wealth was something only men could create. I’m sharing the...

Welcome to Mess to Millions — the podcast where we turn breakdowns into breakthroughs, trauma into triumph, and pain into serious profit. In this short trailer episode, host Erica Carrico shares the story behind the show: how a cancer diagnosis launched her into what she calls her “life explosion era,” and how the wreckage of that season became the foundation of a multimillion-dollar, soul-led bus...