Loud About Loss | Life After Child Loss for Christian Moms, Grief Support, Infant Loss

If you’ve ever felt your faith shake after losing a child—this episode is for you. I’m sharing the honest truth about my own doubts after Gracie died and what helped me find my way back to believing that God is still good. Together, we’ll talk about what Scripture really says about questioning God, how He meets us in the pain, and why your doubt doesn’t disqualify your faith. 💛  Let’s stay connec...

A listener recently wrote to me and said, “I wish I could say that each loss made my faith stronger, but this one has left me with doubts I’ve never faced before. What helps you believe?” This episode is the first part of my answer to that question. Part 2 is coming. Because after my daughter Gracie died, I didn’t come out with unshakable faith. I came out angry, heartbroken, and asking, “Where we...

If your baby isn’t here, are you still a mom? I’ve wrestled with that question more times than I can count. The answer is yes—always yes. But living that truth out loud in a world that doesn’t understand grief can feel complicated and lonely. In this episode, I’m sharing what it’s looked like for me to reclaim my motherhood after loss and find peace in the truth that my role as “Mom” didn’t end wh...

After losing my daughter, one of the questions I couldn’t stop asking myself was: “What if I never go back to the person I was before?” Maybe you’ve thought that too. I used to think if I just worked harder, smiled bigger, or hustled more, I could somehow claw my way back to “before.” But here’s the truth: we don’t go back. We go forward. And forward can actually be good—because forward is where G...

Have you ever walked into a room and felt like you didn’t belong? After child loss, that “out of place” ache shows up everywhere—at church, at work, even in conversations with friends who once felt safe. It’s like the world kept moving, but you’re stuck wondering where you fit now that your baby isn’t here. In this episode of  Loud About Loss , Becky gets real about what it means to live in that u...

What do you do when the very thing you  wish  wasn’t your story—becomes the one thing God keeps calling you to share? In this episode of  Loud About Loss , I’m talking about the part of my life I’ve wrestled with the most: grief being the centerpiece of my story. After losing my daughter Gracie, my podcast, my YouTube, and so much of what I create revolves around grief and child loss. And honestly...

When you lose a child, everything you thought you knew about yourself suddenly feels… uncertain. Am I still a mom if my baby isn’t here? Who am I when the world looks at me differently? How do I live in a body and a life that no longer feel like mine? These are the haunting questions so many bereaved mothers ask—but few ever say out loud. In this episode of  Loud About Loss , I share my own strugg...

Going back to work after child loss feels impossible. The meetings, small talk, and constant pretending to be “okay” can leave bereaved mothers feeling drained and misunderstood. In this episode of  Loud About Loss , I share my own experience of returning to work after my baby died—and the anxiety, guilt, and grief that came with it. Together, we’ll walk through practical steps you can take to pre...

On August 2nd, my daughter Gracie should have turned 13. She was born with a congenital heart defect called hypoplastic left heart syndrome and lived just 82 days—but in that short time, she changed my life forever. In this episode, I’m bringing you with me through the day we honored her birthday this year. From a quiet early-morning walk along the shore of Lake Superior, to baking her pink birthd...

What happens when we stop whispering about the babies we’ve lost—and start saying their names out loud? In this raw and heartfelt episode of  Loud About Loss , Becky opens up about the deep healing that comes from sharing her daughter Gracie’s story. From feeling stuck in silent grief to finally speaking out on YouTube and beyond, she shares how honoring her baby publicly has helped her move throu...

Birthdays after child loss are some of the most painful days a bereaved mother faces. In this deeply personal episode of  Loud About Loss , Becky shares how she prepares for her daughter Gracie’s birthday—and the emotional weight that comes with it. If you’re wondering how to survive your baby’s birthday when they’re no longer here, this episode is for you. From feeling the pressure to "celebrate"...

This episode of  Loud About Loss  dives deep into one of the most vulnerable and complex experiences bereaved mothers face: parenting after the loss of a child. Becky shares a raw, emotional moment with her 11-year-old daughter, Emilia, who recently laid beside her on the bed as she cried—offering comfort, compassion, and a powerful reminder that even in our sadness, there’s connection. As a griev...

Grief doesn’t come with an expiration date, and yet the world often expects us to move on long before we’re ready. In this episode of  Loud About Loss , we’re diving deep into what it means to speak up about grief, challenge the awkward silence around child loss, and boldly share our stories—no matter how uncomfortable it makes others. In this episode, we cover: ✅  Why society is so uncomfortable...

The early days of grief are brutal. The world keeps spinning, but yours has stopped. In this raw and heartfelt episode, Becky reads a letter to her past self—written with every grieving parent in mind. From the hospital room where she lost her daughter Gracie, to the kitchen where she baked her way through heartache, she reflects on what she needed to hear most in the first days, weeks, and months...

In this powerful episode of  Loud About Loss , Becky sits down with Andrea—a grieving mother, boutique founder, and all-around badass behind  Kalena Deena Boutique . After the stillbirth of her daughter Kalena in 2020, Andrea found herself in a dark place, feeling unworthy, broken, and unsure how to move forward. But instead of disappearing into her grief, she decided to live  intentionally . Toda...

What happens when you finally feel joy again… and it completely wrecks you? In this raw and personal episode of  Loud About Loss , Becky shares the emotional whiplash of laughing, smiling, and even celebrating after child loss—and the deep, gut-punch guilt that often follows. Grief doesn’t vanish when joy arrives, but no one prepares you for how  wrong  joy can feel when your child isn’t here to s...

Grief doesn’t get clicks like a viral dance or smoothie recipe—but it deserves airtime, too. In this raw and real episode of  Loud About Loss , Becky gets bold about what it means to grieve out loud in a world that’s addicted to curated content and allergic to pain. From grief being overlooked online to the awkward truth about what actually gets attention, she dives into why society is so uncomfor...

✨  A conversation for every mom who grieves on the day meant to celebrate her. Mother’s Day isn’t joyful for everyone—and today’s episode is a tender reminder of that truth. In this raw and heartfelt conversation, I sit down with my dear friend Amber, a fellow loss mom whose daughter Kinley was born with multiple congenital heart defects and missing part of her 6th chromosome. Kinley is no longer...

Grief isn’t just about losing a person—and this week’s episode dives into one of the most overlooked types of loss:  the grief that comes with cancer, chronic illness, and medical trauma. In honor of my cancer anniversary and  Melanoma Awareness Month , I’m getting real about what it means to grieve your  before self —the version of you that existed before diagnoses, surgeries, scars, and fear. Wh...

Grief isn’t something you just “get over”—it’s something you learn to live with. In this episode of  Loud About Loss , I sit down with  Angela Croop , a licensed speech pathologist turned  grief mentor , to talk about  functional grief —how to process loss in a way that allows you to move forward  without leaving your loved one behind . Angela, who lost her daughter Avianna to  SIDS , shares how s...

In this emotional and uplifting episode of  Loud About Loss , I sit down with my best friend, Ashley, as she shares her heartbreaking story of losing her son, Macklin, to stillbirth. Together, we explore the importance of community, the power of friendship, and how we’ve each found hope in the midst of our grief. Through our conversation, we reflect on the healing that comes from supporting one an...

This episode is for anyone who’s ever felt like they’re carrying their grief in their bones. If you’ve been told your symptoms are “just stress” or you’ve struggled to explain what you're going through, you’re not alone—and you’re not imagining it. In this deeply personal episode, Becky opens up about the physical toll grief has taken on her body since losing Gracie. From cancer to chronic pain, e...

Did you know that the size of the placenta could be a key factor in preventing stillbirth? And yet, most expecting parents are never told about it. In this powerful episode, I sit down with  Amanda Feltman , a loss mom and advocate from  Measure the Placenta , to talk about how a simple ultrasound measurement— Estimated Placental Volume (EPV) —could help save lives. 📌  What you'll learn in this e...

When a child dies, the world rallies around the mother—but what about dads? Why do so many grieving fathers suffer in silence? In this powerful episode, I sit down with my husband, Shawn, to talk about what grief looks like from a dad’s perspective. We’re diving into: ✅ What it was really like for him after we lost Gracie ✅ The unique challenges dads face when grieving a child ✅ How men and wom...

Grief is hard enough on its own—but add social media into the mix, and it gets even more complicated. Should you share your loss online? What if people say the wrong thing? And how do you handle the pressure to grieve a certain way in front of an audience? In this episode of Loud About Loss , we’re diving into the messy, awkward, and sometimes surprisingly beautiful ways social media intersects wi...