Inner Demons: The Stories We Tell Ourselves

Because fantasy is exhausting

A self worthy of preservation

The flaming sacrifice

dans la même chambre un désir est une prière

I heard his voice on the water

The King of Vessels rules over the domain of the soul

"In the beginning there was a wild horse, and that horse was man…”

GRIEF ~ LIBERATION ~ DESIRE

~ Absolution ~ Desire ~ Destruction ~

And a short story about a rare breed of Eagles. Find me here.

Digesting grief

Notes on collecting and rejecting things.

Conflicting realities.

Are you carrying the fire?

The last tarot offering for Inner Demons: The Stories We Tell Ourselves series is now up (cries in Tagalog). I talk about the psychological significance of the crucifixion, cheese, Symbolist painter Fernand Knopff, style icon Carmella from the Sopranos and more. Two years ago, when I started Inner Demons, I wanted for the first time, in my writing, to somewhat, coherently, explore isolat...

This month, I cleave into loneliness, shame and meaning. I fall into the mythical waters once inhabited by the Greek Goddess Circe. Her voyage to claim and feel her body plunged me from the rabid waters of immortality into the unpredictable, visceral, but ultimately life granting currents of mortality. Circe’s tale is one of bitter jealousy, loneliness and growth

This month I visit an old grave, the site where this personal, but collectively shared exploration through tarot, philosophy, psychology and art began. I excavate repressive patterns rooted in insecurity, denial and outdated coping skills. I talk about obsession, ghosting and being haunted. I also examine the Twilight sagas relation to power, love and the slippery fish that we are determined to ho...

In between reading somewhat basic bitch books, that feel so satisfying, a pending funeral, a bloody long trip in Barcelona and ripping up half my garden, I managed to write July's Tarot Offering. It's on the negativity schema. It's a bunch of fragments, loose ends and whatever else was knocking about in my head in such a weird but morbidly hopeful passage of time. The cover art is from @jondi...

There are countless studies that will dip into the scientific statistics to what being attractive gets you in this world, this isn’t one of them, because it’s been said and I think deep down, we know what it costs to feel ugly...I didn’t want this to be about one race being the winner, because I refuse to feed that narrative and I think despite there always being instances to prove it, there are a...

This month’s Offering approaches themes of rejection, compulsion, love and self-sacrifice. There’s an unfathomable amount of the latter going on in the world right now… So I’ll be swimming in the waters of meaning and beauty too. I tunnel into what creators give up to pursue their art, and what many of us can give up for love, work and grief. I also briefly go into the artists meaning behind March...

This offering marks a year of me freewheeling-career wise and going it alone as a freelance writer and Tarot reader. It’s been a crazy trip, sprinkled with moments of dread, doubt and wonder. I listened to the Twin Peaks theme tune on a loop for ten hours whilst writing about the subjugation schema, and entered the dreams of Roman Emperor Maxen, whilst also caressing David Lynch's theories on drea...

This month I want to set science free, whilst exploring a deeper relationship to our beliefs by thawing-out-the-cold-a-bit, and talk about the sun; as well the Hindu Goddess of destruction and rebirth, Kali. I will also be burrowing into patterns of insufficient-self control, through Jeff Vandermeer’s book, Annihilation.

A killer take on The Whore of Babylon for December’s Tarot Offering podcast cover art; from the haunting + hypnotic @taticompton . The representation of the ‘diabolical’ female figure, as an image to project all our self-destructive fears onto; is buried within the symbol of a woman clutching her golden cup, drunk on the blood of saints, riding a beast with seven heads and ten horns… Scholars will...

The High Priestess Meets Justice: A Cataclysmic Journey Through The Waters Of The Unconscious.  This project in particular looks through the artefacts our desires leave behind… Pushing through bone, stone, blood and cum... To find something that a word like sacred, could only begin to describe. (The Lovers). Links.

I have been looking into the effect of the idea of romantic love as a profound Western expression and burrowed deeper to find its marks on our collective psychological and behavioural history. Romantic love is a whole psychological package… with beliefs, rules and expectations… This month I talk about blood, love and free will. HUGE THANK YOU TO @el_ojo_peludo aka Tono Camunas, for this months cov...