Falling Into Soul

You can know you are free when the alchemical journey of transformation has successfully turned you into a nobody and delivered you to nothing. Wait...what?! In this episode: Why we have to become nothing in order to know our true nature and to activate the soul codes of purpose within  The dismemberment journey it takes to get there Reincarnating into your own life The magic and usefulness of the...

One of the things that has been pried from the grips of my poor ego through the processes of alchemy and spiritual maturing is the idea that I could crack the code. That I could somehow figure out how to save myself from the perils of life. That somehow, my righteousness, my chosenness and my wisdom set me apart from the rest of humanity, and I wouldn’t have to suffer in the ways other humans suff...

Spiritual disillusionment is a huge part of soul awakening. But it's not always easy to decipher whether spiritual practices, rituals, modalities, and beliefs are helping or hindering on the path of soul growth. In this episode I explore Spiritual Margaritaville--the "love and light" base camp we encounter upon spiritual awakening. What is Spiritual Margaritaville? What roll does it...

You can follow the protocol and do all the right steps, and it can still not work for you. Because you can’t predetermine or outline the wild, unpredictable factor of the soul. You feel, discover, and live the truth of it every step you go. In this episode I share about my lifelong obsession with the unpredictable , the mysterious, wild factor of life and the soul. Burning questions of my life tha...

There’s no level of self-actualization that can exempt us from having blind spots. The willingness to be softened and see in ourselves what we have not yet been able to see is how we grow. Again and again. In this episode, I explore: The role of fear and shame in keeping us locked into the Codependent Drama Triangle The necessity to face fear and shame to transmute out of the Drama Triangle and ge...

Maybe what the world needs isn't more love, but better love. Love that doesn't feel good and light all the time. Love that doesn't brush hard truths under the rug, but helps us face them, knowing that moving through the valley of the shadow gifts us with an inner richness beyond words. Join me in this episode as I explore moving from the Codependent Love paradigm to what I call the...

The codependent triangle way of relating as abuser-victim-rescuer permeates our society and perpetuates trauma. In order to stop the trauma cycle and heal, we have to step out of all roles in the triangle and operate from a place of soul, seeing the luminous power in ourselves and all beings. In this episode: What is codependency as it relates to soul work? The three roles in the codependent (dram...

Grief is an ocean...waves and waves and some places you can never touch the bottom of it.  In this episode I explore Why grief is such a big part of soul work  Why grief never seems to fully resolve itself Invisible losses of the soul  How alchemy prepares us to carry and process grief better  At the end, I do a spoken word of my writing Made of Grief originally published on my website in 2013. Th...

It's one thing to find and live your own truth. It's another to live the parts of you too big and wild to fit into any truth, even your own. In this episode I discuss The fear and pain that comes with not fitting in, of the world having no place for you when you are true to your soul My own journey with trying to make and find a place for myself in this world My story with leaving my hom...

You may be undergoing the rigorous process of distillation if you keep going through intense death and rebirth cycles in quick succession  the rug keeps getting pulled out from under you you can't get any traction with anything you try to manifest or create  you feel like you can't quite break free of certain cycles  you're finding yourself shutting most of the world out and strippi...

The whole point of doing the inner work of alchemy is to form the Philosopher’s Stone within.  But what does that esoteric term "Philosopher's Stone" even mean? And what does it mean for those of us engaged in soul work today? In this episode I demystify the Philosopher's Stone. I talk about what it takes to uncover it within (having a spiritual awakening isn't enough) and...

We can be so busy trying to find our soul purpose, trying to create a life we think is going to give us the most freedom that we miss the one thing the soul actually wants--to live the life we've been given. Join me as I create a new conversation around soul purpose and telltale signs of how to recognize soul alignment when it's so often not what we think. Original song "Fall Away F...

When the journey kills our attachments not only to material things, but also to spiritual aspirations and dreams, we’re faced with living from the achy abyss of our own nothingness--a path woven from continual surrender to mystery and wonder.  In this episode, we'll explore The dark night of the spirit and how it differs from the dark nights of the soul Why it's necessary to lose our ide...

We often lump soul and spirit into the same category, using them interchangeably, but from an alchemical perspective, they are different. How so and why does it matter?  In this episode I explore the difference between the opposing soul and spirit energies within each of us and why we can't disconnect from one or the other  how the alchemical processes help us re-balance those energies in our...

One of the most confusing things on the soul path is feeling we are so deeply meant for something and having it so not work out. What's up with that? Let's explore how alchemy works to burn away our preconceived notions and put us into contact with the true nature of ourselves and all things--the starting point of all magic making. Song: Fall From the Lie at 12:48 Thank you for listening...

Soul work can be so hard sometimes. Is the price we pay to be true to our hearts and follow the pull of the soul worth it? Join me as I unpack some of the conditioning around this question and explore how to connect with the beauty and the wonder of the unknown beyond our preconceived notions of things. Life performance of original song "Everything I Never Knew I Needed"at 20:05 Thank yo...

An exploration of why it can be difficult to follow the pull of the soul and how you're not doing anything wrong if your reality is hard, even though you may look like a spiritual failure. We'll also take a look at what's going on alchemically (the lower vertical experiences of the inner axis) when things get so hard and devoid of perspective at times. Live performance of Saving My...

In this first episode, we explore what it means to live the soul's truth, what things condition us away from knowing and aligning with our inner truth, and how to cultivate a relationship with our inner landscape to navigate the challenges of life. Live performance of original song "I'm Your Lullaby" at the end. Support the show Stay connected through my Email List Get a copy o...