Dark and Enlightened

I had such an amazing and insightful conversation with my friend, Sabre Sarnataro, about narcissistic personality disorder, the spectrum of narcissism, and growing up with a father with NPD. Then we jump into all sorts of other reflection and things we have learned through therapy and our own healing. It's a really great episode and I hope you enjoy this one! *** Sabre is a digital marketer i...

I know this is my first 3 hour episode in a while (or maybe ever?), but I promise you that every minute is worth the listen. I interviewed my friend, Amanda, about her life and the multitude of traumas and life experiences she has had. We touch on probably the biggest variety of topics ever: military life, gangs, addiction, death, pregnancy, abuse (all forms of it), incarceration, reentry, etc etc...

I have one of my favorite regular guests back on the show: my sister, Alison Kane. We catch up on how her 2022 went and her recent diagnoses of depression, anxiety, and the one I would have NEVER expected: ADHD. Alison also lost her sweet cat, Marble, last year shortly after we lost Gus and we talk about what that was like and pet grief overall. Per the usual, we sound the same, so just remember t...

On today's episode, I have a great conversation with my friend, Tom. We kinda go all over the place--everywhere from politics, substance use, the HIV/AIDS epidemic, WRAP, personal medicine, harm reduction, mental health issues--we do it all! I hope you enjoy our conversation and get something out of it. *** Tom Jackson's "day job" is as a Registered Peer Specialist at Western S...

WE ARE BACK, BABY! Thank you for being patient with me while I took care of my life. I am super excited about this episode with my friend, Lela Graham. Please check out her bio below to learn a little more about her. She is an AMAZING woman who ran for office in the state of Montana and she was completely open about her recovery (a politician being open and honest? WEIRD, I KNOW). We talk about PT...

Just a little hi and to let you know officially that I am coming back. I even have episodes already recorded and everything--like a real podcast host. I missed y'all and I hope you continue to listen! BRB next Friday. Support the show

Hi. I know it's been a while, but I was away for good reason.  My husband joins me for this one as we recount the last 7 months that I've been away from recording.  This episode truly revolves around our dogs, Gus and Tuco. We discuss pet grief and I give the case for why losing a dog (or pet) should carry the same weight as the loss of a person. We cry. We ramble. I didn't edit thi...

Today's episode is a little different in the order I talk about things, so lemme know what you think of the different format. I talk with my friend, Nikki Fordey, about her career in social work. We discuss her specific area of social work and talk about what exactly does social work encapsulate. We then pivot the discussion to growing up, being somewhat of a medical mystery, due to issues sh...

Buckle up for a Bingo card full of trauma (LOLZ for my dark humor people).  I have a really great conversation with my friend, Clarissa O'Neill, about the various things that she has gone through in her life. Here is a big trigger warning: there is discussion of child abuse, self harm, suicide, sexual assault, rape, and substance use. Clarissa also talks about her time in the Army Reserve and...

It's an end of the year reflection episode with my baby sissy, Alison Kane! There's been a lot of dark topics lately, so wanted to lighten it up and have a chat with Alison about all sorts of stuff: how work impacts how we live our lives (and view our worth), our never-ending quest for perfection, how random shit in our childhood affects how we view things today, and more. No super heavy...

On today's episode, I get to switch roles and ask all the questions to my life coach! Maureen Scanlon is my AMAZING life coach and I have a very open and candid conversation with her about her life. Trigger warning: there is discussion of domestic violence, along with psychological abuse (not just physical abuse). I already had a ton of love and respect for Maureen before, but after hearing h...

I'm issuing a trigger warning for people today, as this convo goes into the topics of self harm, suicidal attempt/ideation, and mention of sexual assault. This episode has a LOT of layers to it and there is more that we discuss than what's above, but I have a very deep conversation with my friend, Jordan Scott, about some of the adversity she has faced in her life.  Here are some of the...

My friend, Stephanie Brown, is back with me to give an update on her grief journey and the changes she has made in her life! If you haven't heard our episodes together, go listen to The Story of Boom. Then listen to Signs from the Beyond. THEN listen to this one to fully understand the 180 that has occurred here. She is such an inspiration to me and I am so proud of all the work she has done...

This episode is packed with a LOT, so get yourself a little beverage, a snackie, and settle in. I interview my friend, Jason Rudeen, who is one of the co-hosts of The Way Out Podcast. Jason is someone who is in recovery and has gone through a lot of shit to get there. I am giving a big trigger warning for people that there is discussion of sexual molestation/abuse (as a child and an adult), along...

I AM BACK, BABY! A lot has happened in the last couple of months and I catch you up on all of it - from quitting my Corporate America job to codependency to my new medium to my fears of no longer considering myself an independent woman. This is all a catch up episode with my honorary guest host and husband, Jordan. Good to be back in it and I hope you don't mind my rambling update. *** I woul...

This is the season finale, people! And I completely forgot to say my normal spiel in the beginning and I noticed that while editing, so good job to me--I finally forgot it. If you have made it this far though, you know what you're getting into. For the finale, Jordan is back with me and we talk about sex--the ultimate taboo topic. We keep it real and talk about how being married with no kids...

This episode is a good one, people! We have discussed PTSD in the past and each time, we talked about how we used to only think that PTSD was something people in the military dealt with. We know now that anyone with ANY trauma can suffer from PTSD, but this is my first conversation with someone in the military with PTSD. Sergeant Major Rick Ojeda is in the Marines and he has done numerous combat d...

Have you ever lost use of your arm for a couple of months? What about double vision in one eye? Or maybe a 3 month long migraine? Well, these are all things that my friend, Brandon Gazard, has experienced in his Multiple Sclerosis flare ups. Brandon was diagnosed in 2007 with Relapsing-remitting MS. This is the first time Brandon has talked in depth about his disease to anyone, so I appreciate him...

This is an extremely enlightening episode for me, as I learned so much from my amazing friend, Sora Iriye. I mention in the beginning that it is so hard for me to sum Sora up in a short, succinct way because she is so many amazing things, but I just went to her IG and the profile description she created sums her up better than I could. Sora is a Japanese-American, Disabled/Disfigured, Neuroqueer a...

The title says it all: this is a filler episode. Sometimes, I need a break from all the heavy shit to decompress and this is that episode. There is still some deeper discussion, as my husband, Jordan, is chatting with me, but it goes from discussion of self confidence and worth to why I don't blame Aaron Burr for challenging Alexander Hamilton to a duel. This episode is all over the place, bu...

I am starting with a very big trigger warning to everyone--for me, this is the darkest topic I have covered. I talk with a friend (who wishes to remain anonymous) about her experience with sexual assault.  Sadly, this is something that happened to her more than once and she discusses how these events affected her. I am incredibly proud of her for speaking up because this is the first time in her l...

We're getting spooky today, people. OK, not really spooky, but kinda weird. My friend, Stephanie Brown, is back and in my studio (aka my office) and we are discussing signs from the beyond. Our brothers know how to keep in touch and boy, do they send all the signs. Stephanie is the only person I know who gets these signs as frequently as I do. She is the one person I can talk to about this in...

This is my longest episode ever, but there was SO much to discuss and unpack, so lots of time was needed. Today, I talk to my friend, Crystal Storey, about how events in your life can lead to PTSD and you may not even realize it. Crystal discusses her experience with miscarriage, then finally having a child who has a condition that is the 2nd documented case in medical history. And while this is g...

I have my amazing sister, Alison Kane, back on the podcast to discuss her journey with PCOS. The conversation then pivots to one about weight issues and our insecurities around it. It's a very candid discussion about all the womanly type things, so I totally get it if you dudes out there don't check this episode out. Or maybe check it out and get some weird secret insider look into the w...

So, my husband, Jordan, and I discussed our mental health issues a few episodes back on We're Both Struggling (if you haven't listened to that one, go back and listen to that before listening to this one). On this episode, we give an update on a lot of things--are the meds working? Do we feel better? Are there side effects? Are we gonna have kids now? All sorts of info is talked about in...