Cults to Consciousness

Celebrating 200 episodes with these 7 other incredible women!  We explore ways in which women are harmed, silenced and exploited within 8 different cults from their unique perspectives. The stories and wisdom were beautifully shared amongst survivors supporting each other. They also share ways in which they believe women can take back their power in or outside a cult and gain clarity and freedom. ...

"The Order" or the "Kingston Clan" is known for their incestuous practices of polygamy in an effort to keep their "bloodline pure". They are a fundamentalist branch of Mormonism in Salt Lake City, where marrying 1st cousins and even half siblings, is seen as perfectly fine. Amanda Rae @TheAmandaRaeGrant  , who was raised in this group, escaped at 17 and was seen on the TV show "Escaping Polygamy"...

Forced to suppress who he really is, Val Snow escaped the cult that almost put him through conversion therapy, and is now living a fulfilled life. Ask him your questions! Click here to watch on YouTube Resource for those escaping polygamy: Holding Out Help Check out our in depth interview with Val here Val's youtube Channel IG: @valiantunicorn  Get more of Val's story on Amanda Rae's channel How D...

CW:  CSA, SA, mentions of suicide…. Philip Seibel was born into the Children of God sex cult and survived many instances of CSA at the hands of his own parents. This was all part of the cult’s mentality “God is love and love is sex”.  Our first episode together details his childhood and escape attempts. When he was able to get out successfully, he had no idea about the outside world. At the age of...

Within The Children of God, also known as The Family International, the members blindly followed the leader David Berg. They weren’t even allowed to know what he looked like. Only a select few were chosen to be in his presence and can tell the story of who “Grandpa” really was. He was a twisted man who married children, including our guest Serena Kelley who was only 3 years old. Serena is the only...

CW:  CSA, SA, Mentions of drug use- From the ages of 6 to 12, up to when the cult leader, Berg, died, Serena Kelley hid her identity.  She was born as a chiId celebrity in the notorious The Children of God cult, known for their extreme abuse practices of polygamy, pedophilia, forced chiId marriages, religious prostitution, and chiId trafficking.  Daughter to Sara Kelley— part of leadership, and wr...

CW:  CSA, SA, ChiId Trafficking- David Brandt Berg, also known as King David, Dad, or Grandpa to followers, was the founder and leader of the cult generally known as the Children of God.  In 1968 it began as a new religious movement focused on spreading the Christian message.  As the decades progressed, the group targeted vulnerable people and devolved as a counter to purity culture in which Berg...

Ryan Fisher, former confidant of Tim Ballard (founder of Operation Underground Railroad), is a key witness in the latest Kely Suarez case.  She is suing Tim for her portrayal as a child traff*cker in the controversial “Sound of Freedom” film.  With the case just a few weeks away, Ryan opens up about his experience working closely with Tim, as well as the details of the case in which he’ll be a wit...

Carah Burrell blows the lid off Tim Ballard's scandals with new insider information.  Shocking testimony reveals the mystical Mormon beliefs behind everything.   Catch Carah’s full breakdown of Tim Ballard's scandal here:   pt.1 https://youtu.be/sSyGDPoWjBo?si=1sTjrAFZrQepXzAk pt.2 https://youtu.be/6Sxo4ogVRiI?si=_kji5ngd6fg0RoZg Click here to watch on YouTube Follow and Support Carah! YouTube:  @...

Tim Ballard has been in the news for the past few months but it just keeps getting worse. You may know him for founding Operation Underground Railroad where he claims to have saved hundreds of kids from s*x trafficking and the movie which falsely depicts his heroism, "Sound of Freedom".  We have discussed a multitude of false claims, backing then shunning (as well as rumored excommunication) from...

Timothy Ballard is an American activist, speaker, author, and founder / former CEO of Operation Underground Railroad, an anti-sex trafficking organization. The 2023 American action film Sound of Freedom starring Jim Caviezel was inspired by his work. Documents recently obtained by VICE News show Ballard claimed that a revered and powerful figure in the Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-day Saints p...

Dainy describes what life was like for them growing up in their Ultra Orthodox community and going to an all girls’ school. Life was black and white when it came to gender roles and expectations and because of this, boys and girls even got different education. Pushing back and asking questions got them into trouble multiple times when conformity and compliance were demanded. Click here to watch on...

Following up her initial interview, we go LIVE with famous Hasidic comedian, Leah Forster.  After being outed and ostracized from her Ultra Orthodox family and community, Leah, who always felt silenced and repressed, details how comedy clubs and restaurants were forced to ban her from performing, how she took to social media and went viral, and ultimately, how she turned pain into comedy.   Click...

Growing up in an Ultra Orthodox Hasidic family, Leah Forster always felt silenced.  Ab*sed at the hands of her father, she began to turn pain into comedy.  Later on, performing for Jewish female only crowds, Leah crossed boundaries within her community and became famous.  Things took a dark turn when she was outed on social media and then fired on the spot from her teaching job of 13 years.  When...

CW:  graphic talk of sex, marital rape, miscarriage, pedophilia  Born into a strict Ultra Orthodox family and the daughter of a Rabbi, Chasya’s life was under complete control.  In this 2nd part of her interview, we discuss the shady dealings of the community with law enforcement, judges, hit men, reproductive coercion, internalized misogyny, sexual distortion and more.   Click here to watch part...

Born into a strict Ultra Orthodox family and the daughter of a Rabbi, Chasya’s life was under complete control. She describes how modesty begins at 3 yrs old, as to not cause men to “stumble” and how slaughtering chickens in front of chiIdren for their sins scarred her for life. Blamed for being SA’d by a boy as a chiId, and severely pun*shed, her life was under constant scrutiny and judgement. Al...

Learn more about the horrendous and abusive IBLP training centers headed by Bill Gothard with Davey Jackson Click to watch on YouTube Watch his initial interview here  Find and support Davey! YouTube:   @daveyjaxx   IG: @daveyjax LinkTree We want to meet you in real life!  Come adventure with us on our 2nd C2C VACATION!  Click here to go to the official booking page Subscribe to our C2C "CLIPS" Ch...

A follow up to the incredibly inspiring interview with Tia Levings, we further discuss the details of her year on the run from her abus*ve husband, and how she was able to heal.  Click here to watch on YouTube Watch the original interview here:  How “A WELL TRAINED WIFE” Narrowly Escaped Extreme Christian Patriarchy with 4 Kids Pre order Tia’s book: A Well-Trained Wife www.tialevings.com Find Tia...

After an open and honest conversation, we are again joined LIVE today with Timmy Gibson, a former fundamental Evangelical Pentecostal Pastor who started his own church with 300 followers.  We further dive into his reflections and regrets during his time as a “Healing Evangelist” who taught his followers how to speak in tongues.  Click here to watch on YouTube Watch initial interview here Find Timm...

Following up her incredible interview recounting how she grew up in a religious community-turned-cult called the Center, today Patricia Walsh Chadwick joins us live to discuss what happened after. At the age of seventeen she was forced out of her home, leaving behind her entire family, and without access to higher education. From her first job as a receptionist at a brokerage firm, she clawed her...

From the age of six through her high school years, Patricia Walsh Chadwick was raised in The Center, an isolated, rural community of 100 members, including 39 children, led by Father Leonard Feeney, an excommunicated Jesuit priest, and managed with an iron fist by his spiritual alter ego, Catherine Clarke. Together, they created a monastic environment that demanded obedience, silence, chastity, an...

The Mormon church has always claimed to be accepting of everyone including the LGBTQ+ community. However, their actions and words spoken to the congregations paint a very different picture. You can be gay, but in order to receive all the blessings from God, you must remain celibate. It has come to our attention that in some wards (congregations), openly married gay couples have not only been able...

This horrifying, avoidable tragedy is something the LDS church lies about to its members to promote faith. In reality, greed and purposely cutting corners led faithful saints to a horrible fate. Join @nuancehoe and I as we read actual journal entries from people who took this perilous 1300 mile trek to settle Utah.  Click here to watch on YouTube Read “Devil’s Gate: Brigham Young and the Great Mor...

More dangerous Mormon propaganda explained and your questions answered with Carrah Burrell! Click here to watch on YouTube Follow and Support Carah! YouTube:  @carrahburrell   YouTube:  @carrahburrell  Instagram: @nuancehoe  Tiktok: @nuancehoe  Patreon: https://www.patreon.com/nuancehoe We want to meet you in real life!  Come adventure with us on our 2nd C2C VACATION!  Click here to go to the offi...

After a preliminary discussion about the many similarities between Islam and Mormonism, tonight we go into further detail with @apostatealaddin who grew up in the purity culture of Islam within Saudi Arabia. Join us as we compare and contrast the rest of the list.   Click here to watch pt. 1 Click here to watch pt. 2 Click here to watch pt. 3 (this episode) You can watch his full interview here Fi...