botanical studies of internet magic

this week’s episode is about inhabiting yourself on the internet — by relating to it as a public vessel for your ongoing creative self. I’ll explore: the opposite of internet as creative practice -- the internet as performance, as a strategy game, and as obligation seeing the internet as a genre-defying infinity canvas for your creative expressions how being in public is about allowing yourself to...

this episode is all about deconstructing and letting go of the pressure to “build an audience.” I’ll disentangle the practice of being an artist — from the byproduct of having an audience — and share how finding freedom from that pressure creates a well of personal power (and paradoxically, will magnetize your audience). we'll explore: three sources of pressure: (1) artist recognition as legit...

this is my guiding principle 101: my devotion to process. I’ll unpack why I believe that process is the magic key to anything you want to create— in art, business, money, and the self. I explore: how our product / outcome / results obsessed culture disempowers and suffocates art, business, money, and the self — from the perspective of process vs. product-based thinking how embracing your process i...

this is my last chapter of sharing my wayfinding journey (for now) — in which I share how I stopped traveling, decided to make a home in Istanbul, and slowly learned to show up as my artist self — in relationship, and in the world. I’ll untangle: why I clung onto hermitude, and resisted being in relationship (with any "other") what I had to let go of: emotional storms + binary thinking w...

this episode is about leaping into the void. then, living in the leaps. I share my story of leaving NYC, slow traveling the world during a pandemic, and the treasures I found, deep within my artist-hermit self. from being suffocated by pressure — to creating from presence embracing a life without plans, goals, or expectations a digital detox to silence the noise in my head why make art even if no...

this week's chapter on my wayfinding journey is about my years of the creative hustle, in which I tortured myself with the question: “how do I survive as a creative, and not hate myself?" I’ll explore: my personal distillations of the prescribed / trailmarked paths of success — for writers, visual artists, and business owners how I thought something was wrong with me for not climbing thos...

A very personal account of the extreme feelings that lead me to quit my full time / part time jobs, and commit to working for myself. This is a continuation of my series on wayfinding (my series of jumps into the void), featuring Jump #2: from aspiring writer with a 9-5 job — to deciding to become an entrepreneur. I’ll explore these topics: the ever-present feeling of wasting my life life as a rec...

the "Iron Rice Bowl" is a Chinese metaphor for job security and stability (aka, what we, as artists and entrepreneurs, didn’t exactly choose.) this is a beginning of a series about wayfinding, in which I’ll share the phases of my own decade long journey, from (almost) the very beginning. I’m unveiling the ghosts of my head, and untangling a few themes: inherited cultural blueprints of wh...

an introduction; an opening of themes and unspooling of threads: 🌱 botanical -- plant life as a metaphor for creation 🪁 studies -- a way of curiosity, growth, and discovery 🏕 internet -- a space to inhabit, build, and be 🪼 magic -- the power of energetics and creativity *** read text and notes for this podcast episode visit me on my website-world sign up for my weekly newsletter