Beyond the Monsters

Amie Ichikawa shares her remarkable transformation from incarceration to becoming the founder of the Woman II Woman organization. She opens up about her experiences behind bars, the emotional and psychological toll of prison life, and the difficult transition back into society. Through her story, Amie sheds light on the harsh realities faced by incarcerated women, the silent battles with PTSD, and...

In part two of his powerful story, Trevor Beaman opens up about his journey through substance abuse, mental health struggles, and the impact of military life on his personal relationships. He reflects on the turning points that led him to seek help, asking for support within the military, and the realizations that came during deployments. Trevor also shares his transition to a new life in Key West...

Trevor Beaman is an active duty U.S. Army Green Beret, a husband, father, and a dedicated advocate for mental health and trauma awareness. He shares his journey from a difficult childhood marked by sexual abuse and dysfunction to the rigorous path of becoming a Special Forces soldier. He opens up about the harsh realities of war—witnessing extreme violence in Afghanistan, losing fellow soldiers, a...

Emma Smith, a licensed professional counselor and certified sex therapist, shares her expertise in working with survivors of sexual trauma. She explores the crucial role of consent in therapy, the challenges trauma survivors face, and the diverse therapeutic approaches she employs to support healing. Emma also examines the profound influence of societal norms—such as purity culture—on individuals’...

Nathan Wray's journey unfolds from being an "Air Force brat" to facing the harsh realities of bullying, substance abuse, and academic struggles. He reflects on the profound impact of his childhood experiences, the power of support and connection in education, and the invaluable lessons learned along the way. Emphasizing the importance of understanding and communication in both parenting and educat...

Tessa Jennings shares her deeply personal journey through mental health struggles, addiction, loss, and redemption after a tragic DUI accident that took a life and led to her imprisonment. She opens up about the emotional and legal consequences of her actions, the overwhelming guilt she carried, and the societal judgment she faced. As she navigated the hardships of incarceration, she also endured...

Chell, the host, shares her deeply personal journey through trauma, love, and loss. In order to help other widows, she opens up about the heartbreaking experience of losing her first husband due to a tragic drunken night that ultimately led to the accident. She reflects on past experiences—including tumultuous relationships and the weight of generational trauma—that have shaped her life. Chell can...

Naima Hill opens up about her profound journey through grief after the tragic loss of her daughter, Avy, and her beloved dog in a devastating car accident. She shares the raw reality of navigating immense sorrow, the challenges of finding support, and the ways in which society often falls short in offering empathy to those experiencing deep loss. In her quest to honor Avy’s memory, Naima turned he...

Raven shares her powerful journey of self-discovery, resilience, and healing. Growing up within the strict Jehovah’s Witness religion, she faced trauma, identity suppression, and addiction, struggling to reconcile her true self with the confines of her upbringing. She courageously speaks about the deep scars left by multiple instances of sexual assault and the lasting impact of those experiences o...

Holly Buss shares her powerful journey of overcoming emotional abuse, manipulation, and religious grooming. She recounts how, as a high school student, she was groomed by an older man—her teacher—into the beliefs of Reformed Christian Reconstructionism, as well as into a marriage that was marked by control and emotional turmoil. This experience of religious and psychological manipulation left her...

Sarah Marie shares her journey through trauma, addiction, and mental health struggles, describing how growing up in a small town where secrets were hidden left her feeling vulnerable and fearful. She opens up about her battles with addiction, bulimia nervosa, and episodes of psychosis, which deeply impacted her life. Once a successful spiritual medium with a social media following, Sarah’s declini...

Lorah Gerald discusses her experiences as a domestic adoptee and her advocacy for better mental health care for those affected by adoption. She highlights the hidden history of adoption, particularly the Baby Scoop Era, and its psychological impacts on adoptees. Lorah emphasizes the importance of healing for both adoptees and adoptive parents, the ethical concerns surrounding the adoption industry...

In this powerful and deeply moving conversation, Chell sits down with Seth Gehle to uncover his journey from a childhood marked by relentless trauma and sexual abuse to becoming a published author and motivational speaker. Seth courageously shares his story of growing up in a chaotic and dysfunctional home shaped by addiction, neglect, and manipulation. He reveals the profound impact of the ongoin...

In this powerful conversation, Melissa Greene opens up about her journey through church trauma, sharing her experiences of growing up in a conservative megachurch shaped by fear-based teachings. She reflects on how these doctrines influenced her childhood, her moments of doubt and questioning during college, and the transformative power of travel and personal growth in expanding her perspectives....

In this deeply personal episode, host Chell Bane sits down with Kenna to explore her experience of growing up without her father, who passed away when she was just six months old. Together, they delve into the complexities of grief, the unique challenges of losing a parent before forming memories, and the emotional development that stems from such loss. Kenna reflects on how her father’s absence s...

In this episode, Chell and Dan Bane explore Dan's powerful journey through addiction, tracing the early influences that led him toward substance abuse and the role of family dynamics in his story. Dan opens up about his experiences with various substances, pivotal moments that led him to seek help, and the ongoing challenges of maintaining sobriety amid life’s complexities. This honest and reflect...