Authentic Chaos

Are you fulfilled in your life? If so, what do you think is providing your fulfillment? If not, then what would provide you fulfillment? These questions are important because they make choosing happiness every day easier. Join me and Annie Warren (@annieandgriz on instagram) as we talk how we find fulfillment through adventure and community.

Have you found yourself trying to get more? More money, more space, more food, etc. But do you really need as much as you think? What is enough? What is Enough? is a simple question with complex answers and even more complex implications. In a culture of constant consumerism, many live lives they don't enjoy to achieve some retirement goal in the future. But instead of living for the future, w...

Think about the last time you took on a new hobby, how did it feel to learn something new—to push your limits? What did you learn about yourself as part of the process? Can our hobbies and interests be more than just “keeping busy”? Can we learn deeper lessons about ourselves through our hobbies and how we push ourselves? Join me and Stephen Ritchie (@stephenritchie45), a avid hobbiest with physic...

Work culture these days can include positive aspects like seeing your coworkers as teammates, coffee runs, team lunches, and activities. Is this seemingly positive shift in work culture a reward to workers or a tool of control by our employers? Do we just work 40 hours a week or does work take up more of our mind than just the 9-5 hours? Why should the reward of retirement be at the end of our liv...

Do you feel like you live in constant routines? Like nothing changes between days or weeks? Is this the life you are most happy with? Is there no other life for you? Elle Mills (IG: elle.millsx) and I have had these questions for ourselves. We explore how we found ourselves at a crossroads in our life journeys and how we embraced the unknown to find our own happiness. How can you embrace uncertain...

When you look at light reflected on a surface (like water), have you reflected on if other people see that same light ray? Is it also pointing towards you for them? Or does it point towards them? Is art just a culmination of lights, colors, and sounds? Or is it a story fused together from the artists and our own perspectives? What lessons can we take from these examples to better understand how we...

Embracing our authentic chaos is a life-long journey. Some start when they are young, some when they are old. When you start doesn't matter, but starting is the important thing. But what happens when we lose our way? How do we recenter ourselves and find our way back to our path? How can we focus on being ourselves when we live in a world of stress, pain, and tragedy? Is loss and stress avoida...

Life in America is full of hustle and independence. Young adults in America are taught to be successful they need to leave home and create a life for themselves. But the dream has turned into a nightmare for some: millennials are learning the difficulty in building community from scratch. Dating, finding a life that works for you, even making friends can be difficult. How can we treat each other a...

Traveling is a beautiful experience: it shows us different parts of the world, different ways of life, and more importantly different aspects of ourselves. Maybe you are the type of person who travels to escape their routines, travels to discover new versions of themselves, travels to learn more about themselves. But what happens when you return home? When the "fantasy" of travel ends, d...

In a world where everyone seems to be putting on a mask for others, it is rare to find someone who is unapologetically themselves. We worry about what others might think of us and because of that we put filters on what we want to say and how we present ourselves. In my journeys in this life, it is a rare and beautiful thing to find someone as authentically themselves as Jason. He embodies himself...

Whether you are a veteran traveler who has visited 80+ countries or are just starting your wanderlust journey, how do we make lasting memories and truly experience the world? More than that, how can we even act as travelers in our own home? Join me in a conversation with Elle Mills (IG: @elle.millsx) a thoroughly traveled Contiki tour manager as we discuss what inspired us to travel, how a search...

Traveling to foreign places can seem daunting at first: How do I get around? What if I don't enjoy it? What if I can't speak the language? These questions flood our heads and keep us from experiencing what the world has to offer. Mindfulness has some teachings that can help us expand our understanding of the world and of ourselves. Join me and Dan Pearce (IG: @pearce764) in a conversation about ho...

Our economic systems and philosophies about self betterment are focused on the goal of infinite growth. If we keep growing, then we keep improving and that is great! Except can we keep growing? What happens when we start using up our limited resources in the world, like water, land, and human resources? On a personal level, what happens when we hit limits that are potentially threatening to break?...

Hollywood pushes the narrative that love is all that matters, but if you have ever had a close friendship or a romantic relationship, you know that relationships take more than just love to work. Love may spark relationships but love alone can't meet a relationship's needs. If love is not enough to build a fulfilling relationship then what else do we need? Join me in reflections on how to build de...

Confidence is an attractive trait when dating, but how do we find this confidence? Is confidence in dating different from general confidence?  Join me and Aakash Balaji (IG: @_kash.kash_) on a discussion on the importance of confidence in oneself in dating and how we worked to find our own confidence and authenticity. 

In a world where we are feeling increasingly frustrated with dating and feeling lonely, how do we make friends and date? In such a interconnected world, how can we feel so disconnected from each other? How can we build more meaningful connections? How do we build a community we want to live in? Join me in a conversation with Lucas Chaufounier (founder of Seattle Social Club IG: @theseattleclub) as...

In a time where we are increasingly disconnected from other people, ghosting becomes ever more common. But what is ghosting and why is it so prevalent? Are there ever valid reasons to ghost? Or is ghosting just a way to escape the fear of rejecting someone?  Join me in a discussion with Tessa Heeren (IG: @tessa_heer) as we talk about ghosting, rejection, and how to end dating/relationships in...

We are told that to find love, we must love ourselves. However, no one tells you how difficult it is to love yourself.  Join me in reflections on my own journey of self love, how I break down self love into steps in a journey, and how you can use these reflections to build a foundation of self love in your life.

In a time where lay offs are piling up and in a culture where our jobs are tied to our identity, what is a lay off but an existential threat? How do our jobs relate to our identity? How can we build boundaries around our job to liberate our authentic chaos? Join me in exploration how my career has impacted my identity and how I have taken steps to find my own authenticity.

Dry January, diets, cleanses...we have so many ways of trying to correct when we overindulge. How is it that the things we enjoy can be bad for us if we do them too much? What is the goal behind trying to moderate ourselves? Is it a punishment or a reward? A sign of discipline or part of our journey of self growth? Join me in my reflections on moderation from my own cleanses in the past and why I...

When was the last time that you were bored and did nothing about it? You might not remember, I didn't. Until I took a week off of all media: no social media, no forums, no news, no games, no shows, and no books. Come join me as I describe my journey dealing with boredom: a journey of pain and discomfort followed by personal growth and inner peace. What lessons can you takeaway in your journey in b...

We live in a world of constant distractions: 24 hr news, social media, new trends, career ambitions, etc. When so much has us focus on the external, what time do we have to look inward?  If you feel like the constant influx of information can be daunting, if you ever feel like you don't have any time for yourself or that you are unsure of who you are, then maybe it's time to starve your ego t...

Have you ever felt unfulfilled? As if there was a hole that you couldn't fill? Let's explore what that unfulfillment is and how we could fill that hole.   Going into 2023, Authentic Chaos will also do video podcasting! With this new year, let's set some intentions to help our journeys of self discovery! Stay tuned for more episodes!

Are women more emotionally mature than men? Is this a biological differentiation or a symptom of patriarchal structures? Is it in the best interest of men to embrace their emotions or are men destined to be rational machines? How can we inspire more emotional vulnerability in our loved ones and ourselves? Join me on reflections on why men are perceived to be less emotionally mature and why this is...

What is our relationship with food as a society? How has Capitalism impacted our diets and relationships with food? How do we improve our individual relationships with food? Join me in a discussion with Sumit Saurabh (IG: @saurabhsumit) about our epiphanies with food, how we understand food, and how we work to have a healthier relationship with food. This is the first of a