The Truth that Heals

continuation of my interview with Diane Halfman

In this two part episode I was able to sit down and chat with Diane Halfman who has an amazing story of resilience and uncovering the tools to help a person grow. We talk about her background working as an undercover police officer to look into the human trafficking that was going on and how her experiences shaped her into the amazing person she is today.

Pt 2

In today's episode we listen to the experiences of Erika Bornman from her time within the Mission. It was a place which preached a lot about God however not all was good and holy. There came a point where she knew that she had to leave this place. This is her story.

Today I tell the story of how I was not allowed to mourn or grieve the loss of a family member when I was in the cult

Welcome back! For this episode I am joined by Claire Millane to talk about the importance of owning yourself and who you are despite the difficulties which may arise in life. She's an actor, writer, filmmaker and newbie stand-up comedian. She's Dublin based but originally from County Galway in the West of Ireland. She's experienced a lot of ups and downs throughout the years including mountains of...

Angie Berrett (she/they) is an Intuitive Movement Coach, Registered Nurse, Advanced Trauma Informed Yoga Instructor and Stand-Up Paddleboard Yoga Instructor who understands the human body and how it works. She helps people relieve stress, anxiety, depression and trauma through play, movements and fun so they can have healing and peace in their lives. After going from child abuse survivor to regist...

In today's episode I was able to sit down with Angie Berrett to hear her story and experiences growing up Mormon and the trauma she experienced in her childhood. In the second episode we will learn more from Angie on how she was able to find healing in her journey. Angie Berrett (she/they) is an Intuitive Movement Coach, Registered Nurse, Advanced Trauma Informed Yoga Instructor and Stand-Up Paddl...

In today's episode I give details how we were trained to die to ourselves and to no longer think freely. Free Will no longer existed. The only thing that existed was the Community. There was no I in the community. I break down the battles I had to go through when trying to leave and how hard it was to pierce through all of the brainwashing from over the years. I held on to the smallest bit of hope...

In today’s episode I sat down with good friend Gilbert Gonzalez to hear his story regarding faith, individual journey, healing, and surviving after leaving the Jehovah Witnesses.

In this episode I want to give examples of how Fr. Bing gave us an US VERSUS THEM MENTALITY so that you can understand what religious abuse, spiritual abuse, and cult abuse looks like from the world I lived in. If you would like to support my podcast with a donation you are welcomed to do so as your help gives me the assistance to keep my work going. You may go to this link: https://anchor.fm/ryan...

Thank you for coming this far with me in my healing journey!! Today I wanted to share the importance of having a friend to be there for you and to listen to you. Being told to keep quiet about my traumas has been so devastating and has been painful however I’ve had a few friends step it up and show their support and love. So I came to Dublin to find healing through friendship. It’s been a short tr...

in this episode I share with you the narrative that Fr Bing and his closest superiors shared with the people when we were kicked out from the Diocese of Wilmington in Dover, Delaware. He made it look like we were an innocent community receiving unjust persecution from the Church. However, as an insider during these events, I want to share what REALLY happened as I watched things play out in real t...

Hey y'all! It's been a while since I last did a podcast. As your can hear from my voice I am so rusty and nervous but I felt that it was time to get back to doing something which I find to be exciting. Not long ago my father passed away. I always looked up to him and seeing him helpless on his deathbed sort of woke me up on the need to give life my best and to follow my dad's example of putting lo...

Hey y'all! I am still hella nervous when doing podcasting so for now I am reading from my blog. I still don't feel comfortable talking on a mic but I love pushing myself a but. Plus its fun. In todays podcast I am describing a bit about myself and my journey with God. There are some people who took advantage of my eagerness to follow God. I met a lot of wolves in sheeps clothing but I also met man...

To order Cult Girls https://www.amazon.com/Cult-Girls-Natalie-Grand/dp/1736764799 More about Natalie Grand https://jwsurvivorsoriginal.com/cult-survivors-stories-1/f/post-cult-success-can-be-yours-author-of-cult-girls-speaks-up Petition Links https://www.change.org/p/petition-invisible-is-calling-on-congress-to-pass-a-childrightsact-abused-children-in-strict-religions-churches-cults-often-have-now...

I am joined today by cult expert Dr. Janja Lalich. She has authored books which will help people to understand the healing journey for cult survivors and how those around them can be very supporting in their healing journey. Leaving the cult life had left me feeling wounded, lost, confused, and at times even feeling shame. Dr. Janja Lalich really breaks down the ways my experience was culty and sh...

In today’s episode we will be learning the true meaning of consent to avoid confusion and to protect ourselves. As a survivor of cult tactics and manipulation one of the biggest hurts I had was the thought that I had consented to allowing the craziness to happen to me. Joyce and Nina helped me to see the deception that happened and to understand that I never gave full consent. #FGKIA FREELY GIVEN,...

I met John as a postulant in Delaware a few years back. Although he was only there for a few months we became very good friends. Today he shares his story on how he was recruited into the Community, how he was able to leave the Community, and how he ultimately found True Love. Here is the link to their CatholicMatch story https://plus.catholicmatch.com/articles/crystal-wore-an-arwen-costume-when-s...

In the movie Vanilla Sky there is a scene where "revolution of the mind" is mentioned. Tom Cruise then starts to understand that he is in a nightmare and wants to wake up. When I was in the cult everything was "perfect" until I started seeing the truth for what it really was instead of the "truth" fed to me by the community. In today's episode I want to share how I started to change my mind about...

people often ask me how come I stayed in this religious community/cult for so long. Today i want to answer that question by sharing how i was recruited in the first place

For today’s episode I had the honor of chatting with fellow podcaster Alycia who is the host of Call For Convent Reform. We discuss the reasons for her podcast and the things she saw in the convent which need to be addressed. (After editing this episode and fixing a few glitches I am republishing this episode. As a podcaster I am still learning so please bear with my mistakes :) )

Have you ever been in a cult? Or in a religious community that took things way too far that abuses were allowed and at times even justified? Today I share two ways in which I saw abuses getting justified as being for a greater good. I am not a expert or doctor of psychology or anything like that however in this podcast I simply share what my experiences were after living in a cult environment for...

In today's episode with Claudia Moreno Villanueva I open up about some of the verbal abuse that I and other members had gone through and the process that needs to start in order for healing to happen. For me it was a mixture of verbal abuse, religious bullying and harassment, manipulation and shaming. After speaking with Claudia I felt so much resilience within me and a new sense of hope. It had b...

In today's episode I am joined by my good friend Daniel Holland who also joined the same religious community that I joined. You will hear his story from his point of view.