The Journals Of MJ Unleashed

trigger warning: mentions of abuse ! this is a powerful & important topic from my recovery process; how do I stand in my power? I reflect on the past weeks sudden dive into this topic as I talk about shame, worthiness, fear of my personal power, a life of being victimized & punished for expressing my power. I reflect on resistance towards my power, when I do feel powerful & why persona...

in this episode I share the feelings I'm having as I listen to the first mix of one of my unreleased songs. I talk about the catharthis & healing powers of music, perfectionism & not caring as much (sounds weird, right?!). I also dig into feelings I've noticed around complete unworthiness in regards to my dreams & share how inner child work & picking myself are part of the antidote...

in this episode I dig into the creative awakening & what it literally means to me. I reflect on my journey from nothingness to creative abundance & also share the shame all these new creative callings awake in me. & while on the topic on the shame, I also share some insights from the days journaling sesh on how fucking hard it can be to allow ourselves to level up & embody our full...

man, why is rest so hard? & wtf is it even? I get into how I've been struggling to allow real rest on my current vacation & get curious about what this phenomenon says about my tendency for burn-out. I also get into my feelings & thoughts about starting up again with my music career; how can I support myself as I finish this friggin EP? how can I cultivate rest, ease & avoid burnin...

in this episode I dig into the big leveling up I'm doing at the moment. I share the imposter syndrome I feel as I'm about to finish me EP, as well as the panic, the perfectionism, the narratives, the resistance. I go into the inner work I'm doing around it on the page & a new mindset I call 'expecting dissatisfaction". I also share a profound focus shift from result til process & how I'm r...

in this episode I share reflections about joy in regards to my breakthrough & how I feel really afraid of feeling it. I talk about Brené Browns term 'foreboding joy' & how it's a really vulnerable emotion. I also share a beautiful example of perfectionism from my day, as I found myself spiralling before a coaching call. & to start the whole thing off I share a really BIG small step tha...

in this episode I share the emotions that have surfaced after my breakthrough with my music last monday. I share how I fear people won't be as interested in this win as in my struggle. I share how old feelings of being an imposter are coming up again, how I'm afraid that I don't have what it takes to actually be a music artist -- & I share all the antidotes to all of these emotions too that I'...

warning: I share the real feels in this one! hear me reflect on my emotions after playing the biggest festival in the north. I talk about jealousy vs. numbness, being reminded what music can & finally feeling connected to this part of ME! this feels like a huge breakthrough, y'all. just being able to feel anything when it comes to music is pure magic, aahhhh thank you for listening, love. if y...

in this episode I share my feelings the night of a big concert I'm playing with my friend GRETA . I share my thoughts before the show & also talk about how I've had to prioritize between projects due to a serial attack of migraines. I also share a secret project I'm working on for my community --- aaaand share how amazing it felt to be seen & mentioned by my dear friends Amie & James o...

welcome to this special bonus episode "all about journaling". I recorded this episode as my first ever IG live sharing my journaling practice & answering my IG community's brilliant questions. this is part 1, so stay tuned for a part 2.  in this episode I answer the following questions: - "Do you ever feel ‘uughhh’ about having to do it? Do you skip days when you feel that way?" (8:25) -...

in this episode I reflect on over-working, how my body & mental health suffer from it, my Big Bang theory about my sudden creative abundance & the vulnerable act of sharing my shitty art on IG. I share my thoughts on how hard it still is to know how much I can, cause of my health issues. I talk about the overwhelm of having 1000 creative projects, but also how it's a sign of long sought-af...

in this episode I share my BIG dreams of stardom, impact & fame & the shame that's keeping me small. I share how I've just spent the evening self-coaching my way through questions like 'what do you want?' & 'how does that make you feel?'. I share my findings, which (no surprise really) is also a lot of shame for even wanting the BIGness. I'm left with the question; is ego keeping me fr...

in this episode I share my experiences with anxiety in my career as a professional musician & artist. I talk about what happened when I hit burn-out & the heartbreak of numbness towards my craft. I share a traumatic experience that has kept me from reconnecting with playing my music live & how it triggered the ptsd. listen in for whole lot of mental health & career life talk. ...

in this episode I talk about the feeling of plateuing. that feeling of being in a continual state of repetition & waiting. waiting for energy to accumulate before a new big step. frustrated, I ask the big questions; will this ever change? will I ever get closer to my big goals? why am I even doing any of this right now? I share how the steps I'm currently taking with my bookwriting, my unfinis...

in this episode I share with you jumping back into two BIG projects: my book & my EP. but first off, I share about procrastinating with even recording THIS episode, afraid to fail. I also talk about how finishing projects triggers my perfectionism, my fear of burning out again & just feels absolutely terrifying tbh. I also share how I'm working through this fear in my pages & acknowled...

y'all, join me as I dig into what is going on with my fear of committing to projects, taking action & actually finish. I ask myself what I am afraid of, how burnout & mental health plays a role & how the past is influencing me. I talk about only being reliant on & guided by my own will-power & pace, & asking when I'm procrastinating & when I'm actually listening to what...

I this episode I share how the pace in my life is increasing. I talk about how I found myself overthinking after my improv class, all the lessons I'm learning about being present, taking risks & having fun, while I create. I talk about my second time ever coaching & feeling that weight of my experience surprisingly enough support me. oh, & hear me invent the saying: "you gotta make the...

in this episode I share with you warming up to finish my book. I talk about setting some very small goals & allowing myself to have small wins to avoid overwhelm from the big ones. I talk about confidence, resistance & responsibility. & I share some smaaaall wins & important steps in starting to dance again, realizing I don't suck & taking on clients (!!!) in my coaching biz.&n...

I'm rediscovering resistance work these days & noticing how literally all my desires are paired with some degree of internal resistance. in this episode I share with you my practice in resolving this opposition. I let you in on how I converse with these parts of myself on page, how they often just want to protect me & how they stem from terrifying past experiences. I know this is the work...

in this episode I share how my first improv class in 6 months went. I talk about why I love improv as a creativity expander, how it triggers both perfectionism & shame, how I'm always covering my ass, playing it safe & afraid to make mistakes. I also get into how my mental health is reacting to being this active again, as I share about the anxiety & ptsd the class triggered while I was...

I'm in the middle of a transformation, y'all. listen to me talk about how messy asking 'what do I want' is, how I see it as another creative process, how loneliness is telling me to change my ways to avoid burning out (again), how receiving is important here & how it's time to -invest- the cash in supporting myself. redefining your life is no joke. this is a levelling up & it is an allroun...

a BIG weekend with BIG brave steps; I share with you how the auditioning & my first-ever coaching session went. I talk about a motivation surge from following my passion, how I hope I'll continue to coach with 'support' as my expertise. AND I get into the BIG, deep perfectionism pit I fell into, while finishing my resumé for the audition. I talk about how fear, shame & uncertainty triggere...

uuuf, I get giddy in this one, as I share with you some breakthroughs from my week of rest & break from my creative routine. I talk about a new brave step into musical performance. I talk about choosing courage, the shame in shifting lanes, shitty art mindset when doing new shit & beautiful synchronicities. I talk about following excitement, trusting the flow & just friggin DOING the t...

in this episode I go deep into reflections about rest & trusting my body. I share how these last days of exhaustion & lack of motivation in my creative routine is actually covering over deeper unmet needs, creative dreams, even. I talk about the courage to stop, resten & listen to what's not working. & to ask myself 'what do I really want?'. I get into limiting beliefs, resting ins...

welcome to a short, hangover episode, where I talk about preparing for a mini-concert (my giveaway) & the permission to rest. I get into how pivotting in my routines is so crucial, when I encounter new, 'scary' challenges. I talk about how procrastination negates rest. I talk about releasing control, guilt, & trusting that things will get done without forcing them to, but actually WITH &am...