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i sometimes live in my curious self and often live in my scared self . they are the opposite and i dont know what i want or what i should be doing. my curious self has big outside of the box desires but my scared self almost 100% in the box. today i had a curious conversation with you and chat gpt and i stilll have no answer but i feel a lot less alone, more curious and less scared. love you

mostly this past week has been slow on paper but full in my mind. im trying to learn to be comfortable with all of my parts instead of trying to shove them out. im trying to stay open and curious about my whole self. and im trying to clean my house . love you

idk what im doing with my life, i have so many questions and no answers ... but does anyone have any real answers or just answers someone else gave to them. idk. i like the way im living my life, it is definitely hard but it's so true and deep and i love that so i know it would be harder to pretend i dont know that and go live a life that is not true or deep to me so im stuck doing it this way and...

now that i have quit i can spill all the tea... i guess, i have no ill wishes for them i just am putting myself in a healthier situation. i tell you everything bad thats happened and i forgot to mention there has never been a single problem with my technical work or conversations or language etc.. since working there until i changed my schedule love you

today i go over my week and then go on tangents about some bigger thoughts that occurred this week such as psychedelics, my past experiences, work tea results, community, podcasts and books ive been listening to, what ive learned, etc...

finally i finished remaking my clay earring holder. i love it . this week things i did spending time with people i love and then reading my book. nothing crazy. love youuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu

something slightly light. mostly my week nothing too deep or crazy! been spending time with friends and family. it's important to lean on each other in hard times... also i want to wear more flowy clothes , i want to be more comfortable and be able to move freely .

i feel oh so many feelingsssssssssssssssss. and pink hair erw love you!

this weeks things. slumber party, operation hate men less, letting myself enjoy my day to day, and a scaryyyy lake story!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! love you

i wanna dye my hair pink. my week. my fyp and some random shit. sorry my voice sucks right now. love you

me and Shyanne took a flashback to our yearbooks to learn more about each other and past versions of ourselves. we even got to read some of my old journal from high school about an old romantic situation. i have told yall the story but it was fun to go back and read it live. love you have the best week everrrrr!!!!

i had a big test of growth this week. i passed! i did it! i stood up for myself! i did something i never would've imagined doing. it is your birthright to THRIVE, SHINE, & SUCCEED!!!!!!!!!!!!! LOVE YOU

Brody and Bryanna are back again; Brody tells us about what he's been learning in Rome and Greece history. Disclaimer- he says don't quote him on anything : ) Thank you and come back.

Just wanted to pop in. Shitty audio bc im in the car but i love you. I really care about how i show up here and what impact i leave🩷see you soon🩷

where i been, who i saw, what im thinking, what im feeling, where i went.. love you. #staypositive lol

party at the lake house, throwing up, kissing, hippie flip therapy. love you.

this week i had a conversation with my bio dad and it brought up some old wounds. i am exploring and reflecting to figure out my current and new feelings.

reconnected truly with an old bestie. standing up for myself. gathering my feelings with my first third wheeling experience.

2 episodes for my birthday!!! my recent conversation with chat gpt. reflecting on this past year and planning for the future. gpt helps me understand my feelings and deep grounded self. idk how appealing this will be for you, but for me 10/10.

quick trip to Austin with my bitches. just a rundown of everything we did and everywhere we went. #VIP

big feelings, my birthday coming up, Shyanne moving, stability, life, everything. progress from last week's crash out. my truest feelings, my true self. i am gentle and kind and sometimes when im scared or unsure my guard trying to protect me doesn't show my truest best most beautiful version of myself, but it was important to show you that and now this episode is truer and more thought out. love...

i literally crash tf out here. i have a realization about some feelings I've been avoiding and what the reason is. super embarrassing but youre my diary so you see raw crazy Brittany. i dont claim any of this from 35-55 mins im gathering my truest feelings still... i love Shyanne the mostest .

my relationship with social media... what scares me, what i want, how i want to show up, how i have showed up, how it affects us, and more big feelings about it all. love you

just an update. i feel like this was more diary today lol i feel like some thoughts became deeper and truer. maybe some things i haven't put into words yet. and just some life updates more in my brain than just motions of life. idk.. love you

fun while it lasted. we made the best of it and i would do it again. 8/10