The Journals Of MJ Unleashed

in this episode, I reflect on ways trauma has impacted & still impact my relationship with my art & crafts. I talk about attachment theory & how becoming aware is part in not being held back from our dreams because of trauma. I motion to normalize how our relationship with art can feel more or less triggering throughout different phases of our journey & invite us all to get self-co...

in this episode, I talk all things courage! I share why courage is such an important thing to practice as creatives; I share how I'm practicing these days; I talk about uplevelling & worthiness; I share the experience of going live on IG with Amie McNee & the aha moment I had leading up to it; I share the process of a new creative projects; and I end it all off with an example of an ultima...

in this episode, I contemplate the ways I can feel successful as I venture out into new creative projects.  new projects are scary AF, so I talk about how I implement collaboration, ease, shitty art & experimentation. I talk about fear, the central nervous system & knowing when to move forward despite of the fear. this is about creating safety while taking action.   Journal tip #...

In this episode I dig into the cliché of believing in yourself. I discuss ways in my own life where I'm displaying self-belief; from an update from audition life, talking about apprenticeship & investing in yourself to full-blown documenting my way to success. I share how I'm reframing fear & massive self-doubt and the whole episode end off with an explored key to success, I'm diving into....

in this episode I unpack the fear & deep resistance I'm feeling as I'm getting closer & closer to my dream of doing muscal theatre professionally; I share how I've reached out to a mentor and how it's triggered so many classic narratives like feeling unimportant, unskilled & unfamiliar in this world. I unpack all the shame & fear underneath, as I come home to the fact that all thes...

in this episode I unpack the vortex of negative narratives keeping me down these days; I dig into beliefs around the classisc ' time pressure' and feeling unskilled in new creative territories; and I share how I'm detaching & reframing those limiting beliefs to actually be a sign of a great upleveling. basically this episode is a reminder for myself & you, the listener, of all the things w...

do you have this belief, too? I know I reaaaally struggle with letting this go, but as I share in this epiosde -- this belief has been keeping me stuck! looping back to last week's uncomfortableness, I finally get to share with you a breakthrough; I talk about EFT (emotional freedom technique), what that money belief had to with everything & why I want us to revolutionize our beliefs around mo...

in this episode I broadcast directly from the eye of the storm; I share how it feels to be in the vacuum between projects, stuck in painful emotions & fear of it never ending. I talk us through transforming it, implementing all I know about upper limiting behaviour & asking how it's all happening for us. I talk about the uncomfortable & unfamiliar as necessary parts of our journey. And...

listen to me talk about how I am making recommitment a part of my creative process. I talk about how I've been resisting leveling up through some unconcious self-sabotage & what I do to get myself back on the path towards; as an example, I share an anecdote from pursuit of my musical theatre dreams. I probably say 'recommitment' 10+ times in this episode, and I'll keep saying it -- cause, pers...

in this episode I share how I am taking care of myself post-musical-production & in-between projects. creative breaks can feel so scary to me & bring up so many narratives; I share my process of journaling through it, how I build a strong foundation that will sustain my creative life & a real cool life hack to transform really any painful belief. thank you for listening & sharing t...

in this episode I share how I'm landing after my musical production ended. I talk about how I've supported my mental health throughout the process & how I'm preparing myself for the next chapter. I talk about limiting beliefs & narratives as I'm ready to level up; I talk about imposter syndrome, prepping myself for success, why rest is now pivotal for my creative dreams, nervous system reg...

in this episode I share how I literally 30 min's prior to recording made a HUGE career decisions -- based on intuition. I share how foreign, strange & insane it feels, but also how it reflects a deeper trust in myself. I also talk about narratives of worthiness, how it's ok not to settle & insisting on a 'FUCK YES'-feeling in every aspect in life. mentioned: - 'MBA' (manifestation course),...

in this episode I share examples of how I am insisting on finding joy throughout the creative process; I talk about how I moved through an upper limit problem of conflict right before opening night of my show; I share another situation that forcefully reminded me of my dedication to finding the best process when it comes to my music; I talk about trusting intuition & feeling empowered to leave...

in this episode I normalize that vulnerable phase right before it's time to share your art, the phase where self-doubt can get real loud. I talk about an experience from the final stages of rehearsels on my musical & how I suddenly noticed narratives of doubt creep in. I share how I ultimately transformed that negative energy into massive creative flow, fun & success. lastly, I muse on why...

in this episode I share how worry is sneaking up on me & sabotaging the joy of this abundant, creative time in my life. I give an update on all my projects, share the thrill of a video shoot & the triggering feelings of a rejection. I talk about exhaustion from the belief 'I am fundamentally wrong', how zooming out helps, & I recognize that in this expansive period of my life I have a...

in this episode I give you an update on the crazy, abundant, creative time I am in atm. I talk about expanding my capacity for joy, an addiction to worry & the concept of upper limiting. I also share the uncovering of the core belief 'I am fundamentally wrong' and how it's grounded in shame & trauma. as real life example, I tell the tale of my latest call back. I talk about how the limitin...

in this episode I dive deeper into a topic I touched upon last week: navigating other peoples expectations of our art. I share examples from life of well-intended but backhanded comments about my art and talk about fear of rejection, allowing ourselves to evolve, respecting the artist & the ultimate compliment you can give creatives (in my opinion). I also talk trust & self-trust as the an...

in this episode I unpack realizations concerning guilt & being a multidisciplinary artist: is it okay to focus on some projects above others? am I a failure when I don't finish projects or pivot? I share how guilt has been stealing my joy of from the creative process and get into topics like avoidance, perfectionism, shame & self-awareness. I also share how lack of external validation has...

in this episode I share how I survived a reallll intense weekend of creating. I share details of a how I was able to tap into the energy of grace & presence, how I found moments of enoughness, despite being hit by anxiety, a migraine & having a very tight schedule. I talk about how I'm rewriting narratives for my ptsd-ridden nervous system, teaching it that I am safe even when in the inten...

in this episode I honestly just fuck around, full disclosure. this is me walking the walk of SHOWING UP consistently, even when I do not know wtf I'm doing. hear me ramble on some of the rest lessons I'm learning at the moment. I ponder how I best support my artistry financially in the most sustainable way & how pride & identity-work is coming up. I talk about someone complimenting my feet...

This episode is me showing up completely caught in the bleh-'I dont wanna create'-mode. I end up sharing a big revelation from my written journal session; discovering my motivation to create is driven by a undercurrent of fear  -- aka EGO! I talk about how this fear has triggered my hustle stories, guilt & using force in my career & how I wanna fucking LOVE on all of us experiencing e...

in this episode I discover new depths of my icky transformation phase; being embarrased of the artist I want to be. I share how I've noticed I'm not owning my love of singing musical theatre and talk about topics like judgement, self-judgement, fitting in/being cool vs. belonging, self-acceptance & authenticity. I talk about the huge identity shift I am undergoing, how messy & confusing th...

in this episode I share a hard realization: I'm in the awkward, painful, growing pains of transformation -- and more importantly, I share the realization that this is RESISTANCE & UPLEVELING all wrapped up in one. this weird phase is all about moving with the shifts, expansion, backing ourselves 100%, learning to say no and radical self-honesty. let me soothe our scared ego's in this episode &...

in this episode I'm back after being sick for a week. I give updates concerning both good & bad news & dive a little deeper into the self-worth belief of 'I'm not (good) enough'. I talk about being rejected by a collaborator, receiving an encouraging e-mail from a casting team & how the grant application I'm working on is awakening procrastination, perfectionism and the fear of the ONE...

in this episode I share the emotional highs, lows & aftermath of the big audition of this week. I talk about the intense vulnerability hangover I'm in, about allowing & processing the heavy emotions and practicing enoughness as I venture into the unknown.  ASK MJ topic: fear Q: "I am afraid that my energy isn’t reliable, worried I’m taking on too much & will fail" in this today's...