I am OPTimist

Why am I so shaken by this? Because by listening to him over the years, I learned one essential thing—that his strength was in creating meaningful dialogue between people who normally disagreed. There were times when I wanted to give up, when I didn’t want to engage in dialogue anymore. But just listening to him, to the way he stood with courage, asking questions and responding to them, taught me...

Fragmentation Here I am, contemplating all the changes that I have witnessed in my life and in the world, and looking back and looking forward is something that I love doing, but always anchoring myself in the present moment. Because I love studying my chart and the chart of others, as I do many readings a week, and I also look at financial charts, I am observing how the behavior of the world is u...

Back in April 2022, I wrote this description about what an eclipse is. (moving it to the end) Two fictional points: the nodes and eclipses. “It is particularly important to stress that when dealing with the nodes, both of them should always be considered, and not only the north node, as it often is done. We’re dealing here with a line, not with a mere point.” — Rudhyar. Back to the future: This ye...

NOTE: audio file for the book chapter starts at 11:01.254 “The unexamined life is not worth living.” ~Socrates (via Plato, Apology ) Losing Friends. Does it hurt? This Saturday we have a new moon in Virgo and I want to share chapter 11.3 from my audiobook The Nature of My Reality that carries the title, Embracing the pulse of life: Losing Friends. Does it hurt? pages 144-150. I wrote that chapter...

“Nothing is more permanent than a temporary government program.” — Milton Friedman. On August 15, 1971, Nixon suspended the dollar’s convertibility to gold, claiming it was “to stabilize the economy.” It was never reversed. This single move severed the Bretton Woods system and made the U.S. dollar a pure fiat currency, setting the stage for decades of monetary expansion and chronic devaluation. Ha...

You know, when I was born, Uranus was in a balsamic relationship to Pluto. This is a generational imprint. That was the mid-60s, and it completed between 1965–1966. And what was also peculiar about it—they were both in Virgo, Saturn and Chiron in Pisces were making an opposition to this rare conjunction (it takes 140+ years for they to meet). That created a very special situation for the people wh...

Even if this truth is ugly, its more important to be aligned that to be faking pretty lies. Because at the very end, my fear is to abandon myself again… that is not going to happen…. Yep, I feel like staying silent and being present. Though many, many insights and realizations have been surfacing in my consciousness,as I navigate them, this week feels precious in its silence. I do have a gift—a hu...

NOTE: There’s a new section on my blog called MONIKA IN DIALOGUE . Alas, I haven’t yet figured out how to make this section send emails to current subscribers—so I’m posting the link for now. Bear with me until I figure it out… (I will, for sure). This week is a good anniversary for me. On July 30th, when I will possibly drop this newsletter, I’ll be celebrating five years since I moved from New Y...

Me, Me, Me, Me So the other day during the session I was having with Mark, I was telling the story—reminds me of my mother, but it reminds me more about how I relate to myself through others. And I have Leo ruling my seventh house. What does that mean? I spoke last week about relationships, so: relationships are ruled by the sign that is on the Descendant. So the way I relate to others, in a very...

Preamble I believe that the real changes of 2025 are not going to come from the outside. Although the outside world seems very surreal, and at times crazy; and many times like it doesn’t make sense, what I’m starting to understand is this: the beginning of the year was Mars–Pluto opposition, Venus and Mercury retrograde conjoined, the first batch of eclipses in Pisces and Aries, with Saturn and Ne...

A Full Moon in Capricorn is the moment when the structures we have built are illuminated; some stand; some not; but only those aligned with inner necessity will endure… To every thing there is a season, and a time to every purpose under the heaven:A time to be born, and a time to die;A time to plant, and a time to pluck up that which is planted;A time to kill, and a time to heal;A time to break do...

NOTE: 👆AUDIO ABOVE is full length👆 Hi peeps, I got inspired so this article is a bit long yet juicy here a preview : Part 1 1. Ontology, Qualia, Semantics, Thoughts & Forms :: These are the threads I’ve been tracing; where language, structure, and the rawness of experience intersect. 2. Disrupting mental flow :: The mind is wired for patterns, but Uranus is here to tear through them. 3.The Natur...

This article is going to sit between the rational; so we’re going to be speaking about definitions, and the most intuitive part of myself that’s putting all these things together because this is what I’ve been observing from the place where I am right now. A lot of these movements or cultural heritage were given to me via visuals. I lived in New York for so many years, I lived in Europe, so I was...

“You take delight not in a city’s seven or seventy wonders, but in the answer it gives to a question of yours.” — Italo Calvino, Invisible Cities The Compass is Within Just look outside of yourself and see who’s cheering for what, and for whom, and who sees that is carrying the truth. And how many idols are collapsing every day, all the time? How many fake spiritual gurus are showing their true fa...

Report card is here and I want to know if I’m failing, because we’re in very challenging times, and the only way I can see if I’m failing is because I am allowing the collective transpersonal energy to overcome the peace and the calm and the temper that I can have in time of responding—not reacting. I actually have this thing throughout my life that when big bad things happen, I’m the coolest in t...

FUD (an acronym for Fear, Uncertainty, and Doubt)[1] I see a lot of that. I see a lot of FUD. Most people in a position of influence yielding their personal bias instead of holding space and accepting that the fear that emanates from the current chaos is something to first be accepted as a human. Two—it can be used as a springboard to actually change a perspective. The nodes squaring the last full...

I’m no longer protecting myself. Protection builds walls, and I’m not here to live in a prison of my own making. When I’m attuning, it’s so precise, so clean, that the noise can’t find me. It’s not a matter of hiding or standing behind a shield. When I attune my frequency, the vibration of the space doesn’t allow what’s not meant to cross my path to see me—or hear me. That’s what it means to live...

The greatest illusions require the deepest strength to see through them. As Útgarða-Loki tells Thor, strength is not what it seemed: "I shall tell you the truth, now you are out of my castle, and if I live and have a say, you shall never enter it again, and I would indeed never have let you in if I had known your strength beforehand, and you were very close to bringing us a great disaster. You see...

“Space and time form a psychological a priori, an aspect of the archetypal quaternity which is altogether indispensable for acquiring knowledge of physical processes.” — Carl Jung Hey, how’s everybody?- How to trust him [within], not them [the noise] This week, I’m going to go geeky. Geeky all the way. This article is going to be about charts and small talk it is quite long so pace yourself, becau...

NOTE: These recording sessions bring so much value into my life. As I reflect out loud on my insights, my hope is that they offer you value too. What I'm sharing today feels especially significant. When I began recording these thoughts, I had no idea they would lead to a profound revelation. That's the beauty of genuine reflection—sometimes a simple exploration opens doors to deep healing. If my j...

Note: I think everyone needs a break—from the universe, from AI, from fake news, from many, many lies, from everyone stabbing each other in the back, from fake money, pedophile enablers, and from a delusional era peaking this late spring—before swinging back in the fall to give us, again, yet another slap of deception slash truth. A break to see through the veil—because 2026 is coming, baby! Liste...

Living Frequency: The Shape of Silence and the Rhythm of the Void Rhythm of My Presence I think I know what’s going on… with me. In my chart, I shine through the fifth house. Once my heart opens, that’s where my power and self-validation live. And I’ve done that—I’ve opened it. I also have Neptune and my Moon on the Midheaven, so I ought not care too much about how I’m seen, received, or whether I...

In 1999, or the year 2000, whenever The Matrix came out, I remember watching the movie and being completely mesmerized. But one of the reasons why I was so mesmerized is because I used to be high as a kite, and used to just engage my life very high on dope. I remember what the movie's about, like all the stuff that I watched at the time. I never re-watched, I just don't feel like it. But everythin...

The Week Before I Turn 61 Okay, so I'm preparing my article for next week. It's the week before my birthday. I'm going to be 61 years old. I want to do a little bit of a revision of what the last 12 months—or probably 18 months—have been in my life since my mother passed, and how I see that I'm taking charge of many things that were there, but I was not focusing on. I just want to go deep into all...

The last two weeks, I’ve been living inside contrast. And contrast, when allowed to ripen, becomes clarity. In Dallas, I stood before a room of people aligned with sovereignty—not just ideologically, but practically. People who understand the value of scarce time, who recognize that nobody is coming to save them, and who have chosen to act. Although most of the room defends their freedom, not ever...