Disruptor Frequency

Over and over again, I would beat myself up about not doing something properly. For not following the steps that I needed to in order to get the thing that I wanted. For not doing it like everyone else was doing and then blaming myself for not getting any results. My mind was all over the place, thinking about this, then going and doing that. Starting something then not even finishing it. But afte...

I have spent the last few years, ravenously looking. Looking for what, I am not sure, but always looking. Looking for answers, looking for reason, looking for purpose, looking for knowledge. And boy have I found a lot of information. But when you keep seeking, you never really find an answer. Right now, I feel like I have come full circle. That there is nothing new you can teach me, there is not a...

If you have never heard of Shadow Alchemy, come take a listen. Shadow Alchemy is the art of allowing your shadow to speak to be heard, then disproven, alchemised and turned into your power. This process is based on the 4 pillars, where each pillar has a shadow and a light archetype. We use these pillars and archetypes to use our thoughts, our beliefs our shadows to be seen for what they truly are....

Finding the dark, finding shadow alchemy has literally lit me up. Makes no sense right, finding the light in the dark. To me, it makes perfect sense. I have spent so long in the actual dark, that I was not able to really see the light. I had thought I new what it was, but I was wrong. I knew there had to be more, that I could be more. Allowing my shadows to be seen, to be heard has allowed me to t...

Last week I spoke about the depths of my sorrow and where on the anniversary of a tragedy, I was able to find light. But not any light - dark light. What?! I hear you say, dark light, this makes no sense! I get it, putting the word dark with the word light really does not make any actual sense, but to me - it is like the everything has fallen into place in such a profound and deeper way that I can...

7th October 2022, the 1st Anniversary of the passing of my husband The anticipation of this date loomed way before it was present in my reality. It consumed most of September based on the enormity I had made out of the event. (And let's be real, probably a lot of August as well) I had created this projection of what I thought it would be, how bad it will feel, how horrifying it would be to go thro...

I know, I know - I am so inconsistent! I have made plans for the last two years, that every Tuesday I would release a new podcast episode. I mean, I have a LOT to say, so you think that would be easy to commit to right? Ha ha not on my spiritual journey, it is not! As I expand, grow, heal, ascend, move from 3D to 5D, create a New Earth - whatever you want to call it, stuff happens! And I am talkin...

I used to think that I had to be an extreme, either over here or over there. I was either high or low, messy or neat, light or dark, even black or white.. I held onto the belief that since I was a double Gemini and Manifesting Generator that this was all I could be. I had to be more than one thing at the same time. I gave myself the persona of being this or that. I could not be in the middle, beca...

Last year I lost my husband unexpectedly. Right smack bang in the middle of our lives. We had a future we were looking forward to and children still to raise. The impact it had on me was profound and has changed my whole trajectory of who I am and where I want to go.  This doesn't mean that the pain goes away. Grief is a mysterious one that can creep up on you at any time. It can take you dow...

I have branded, branded and rebranded so many times, that you probably don't even remember what my name is. But there is a reason why these things happen.  It could be that I am wishy washy and have no clue what I am doing. Or it could be that these names change, when I change. The represent where I am at with my spiritual journey. Or it could also be that I have received information from my...

Fun is not just for kids, we can still have fun too! And yes we have all this stuff we do now called 'adult fun' but when was the last time you went on a swing or climbed a tree? Why can we not skip instead of walking, or start doing weird dances in the middle of the shops?  We have been so conditioned into doing the 'right' things or things that are acceptable to others, that we can sometime...

It is so easy to see what everyone else is doing and start comparing yourself. 'How come I can't do that?' 'Why is she so good at that and I am not' 'I am not going to put myself out there like that, people will laugh'. Ever said those things to yourself?  When we decide that we are going to stay in our own lane, we take our power back. We get to be ourselves, our true selves without worrying...

Light Language is the human's body interpretation of a light and sound vibrational frequency that is receives from a higher dimensional version of your soul. It can be translated by your human in many different way. I describe them in this podcast! I am also talking about some of the most common questions that I get when it comes to light language. My light language mostly comes out in hand coding...

I used to hate using affirmations, they sounded pretentious and over the top. They did not feel like me at all! I used to use them to fill the energetic holes that would appear after I had been able to release the energy of emotions, beliefs or codings that I was holding onto. I was also retraining my brain, trying to teach it to believe something different to what I had normally believed in. I am...

This is not what I normally speak about, but I decided to mix it up. We spend so much time reflecting on all the tragedy, the hard times, the moments in our lives that have hurt and that we need to heal from. We look at so much of our past in a bad light and of all the sadness that we have experienced. What if we looked at something different for a change?  We can all have similar wedding sto...

Do you have the need to complete things all the time or are you someone who jumps from one thing to another? Do you find yourself half way through something and think, nope I'm done with that. I have always been someone who would fleet from one thing to the next without every really becoming good at it. But I am also someone who has to watch a movie until the end, even if the ending is predictable...

And I've changed the name again! I am always evolving, changing and growing, so my podcast does too! In this Ep I re-introducing myself to the world so you can get to know who I am and what I am about. I have change the name to 'There's no hierarchy in healing' which I found myself believing the opposite of. Thinking I wasn't doing my healing properly because everyone around me was telling me I wa...

What does worthiness even mean? I used to use the affirmation all the time - I am worthy! But why do we need to be worthy? Aren't we perfect exactly where we are? Join me in this conversation, with a destructing the feeling rant in the middle.

I am talking about how courses and coaches have helped me so much in my journey of self discovery. How I can now be my true self because of the knowledge and the support that I had around the way, even though it may not be in the way that I had thought it should have been.

I sometimes have things come up unexpectedly that I need to work on. I will notice these by first seeing a trigger, I will be angry or frustrated or thinking about the past or making judgement on others. This is what I do when things come up and how I move through them.

I have taken the last few weeks off to bring you something super exciting. This Podcast episode is all about my upcoming programs, that I am so excited to share with you!

Healing didn't happen for me all at once, there were many layers to the emotions and beliefs that I wanted to remove. I started off with the heavy layers, working through the emotions of everything that was on the surface and ready to go and over time, the layers started to get lighter. Sometimes old stories would resurface and I would need to go back and remove them, but having the tools and the...

A super short podcast today where I talk about the judgements that we place on others. We often say things not only about others in a judgemental type fashion, but sometimes we also project what we thing are other people's opinions about things. Do you judge others or do you place your own opinion on what other are doing, being or wearing?  Have a listen in and see where you may or may not be...

How many money stories do you have? Where did they come from? Are they even yours? I am talking about my top 3 money stories that I had believed my whole life. These were not even mine, but I lived by them every day. How many stories could you be holding onto that are holding you back from achieving everything you desire? Listen now, and see if we can pull these apart and destroy them for good!

What judgements are currently holding you back right now? Do you believe that certain people are judging your every move? Do you think that people are just sitting around waiting to see what you are going to do so they can judge you? I was like that and it stopped me in so many way to show up as my true self as I was scared of what others would think. Why was I so happy but my husband has died? Li...