Disruptor Frequency

People ask me where the ideas come from and who I learned them from, and there is no one answer, which is the answer. You gather from everywhere, and after a while enough pieces have gone in that what comes out is a different thing. One thing I have noticed is that the piece I want from somebody is usually their earliest teaching, the raw version from before they refined it. This one lays out the...

This is the tapping I used most heavily, and the difference between it and the version most people know is what you say while you do it. Rather than flipping the thing into a positive, you say the thing you actually feel. You come home, the house is a mess, everybody is being awful, and instead of unloading on them you take yourself somewhere private and tap while saying every ugly sentence in you...

Grief cracks you open and then you have to put the pieces back with no manual, and you do not come back the same shape. Some pieces stay on the floor. What is left has more room in it. That is where this one starts, with the idea that the sheer power of that emotion is a scale you can use for everything else you want to feel. The seven that follow are short and all pointing the same way. Nothing e...

I have always hated telling people I am a widow. The word arrives before I do and then everybody rearranges themselves around it. It is part of who I am and it is not the label I want doing the introductions. The long piece in the middle of this one is about that, about losing the half of a partnership and having to work out who you are without it, and about doing that at the same time as everythi...

An idea lands fully formed and then we start fluffing it. We fill in the gaps with everything we already know how to do, and the thing suffocates before it gets a chance to build itself. Ninety nine percent of an atom is space, and it is in the space that things grow. That is where this one starts. From there it goes into what it is like to believe in something when nobody around you does, and why...

Six short ones that sit together. It opens where a lot of people are standing. You did the love and light, the manifesting, the healing, the books, the courses, the coaches, and you are still broke and still stuck, so what now. You try something different, and if nothing out there fits, you build your own. Then money, which I think we have backwards. We chase the thing because we want the feeling,...

I recorded this on the second anniversary of my husband's passing, and I chose that date on purpose. Last year the anniversary flattened me. This year I wanted the day to carry something else as well, because without it none of what I have built since would exist. So this is the announcement of Surge, and it is also the whole road that led to it. Wanting money to fix everything. Writing a book on...

This is the last of them, four clairs that get less airtime and do just as much work. Smell, which is the one that drops you back into being twelve years old, or tells you somebody is here. Taste, which does the same job through a different door. Touch, the tap on the shoulder when there is nobody in the room, which can be a message or can be the thing that stops you stepping off a kerb. And empat...

Clairsentience is feeling. Walking into a room and knowing what has happened in it. Sitting with somebody and getting the twinge in your back that belongs to them. It is your body handing you information, and it works alongside the other clairs rather than instead of them. This is also the one where I say plainly that I do not align myself with the chakras. I built a whole course on them once, the...

Claircognizance is knowing, and it is the hardest one to describe because there is nothing to point at. You just know a thing, and then later it turns out to be right, and you have no idea where it came from. Some of it arrives with an image or a sound attached and some of it arrives clean. Sometimes it is a full instruction and sometimes it is one word that will not make sense for three months un...

Clairvoyance is seeing, and I wanted to describe how it actually works for me because I have never been sure other people see it the same way. With my eyes open I can hold an image in my mind. With them closed I can see something in my mind, or on the back of my eyelids, or through them, and they are all slightly different things. When I first opened up to this I got flashes, scenery running past...

Clairaudience is hearing. Sounds and words that arrive through your ears, and the ones that arrive somewhere inside without a sound at all. It is also how most people first notice they are connecting to something, whether you call it your guides or a loved one who crossed over or your own other versions. There was a time when the people who heard things were either locked away or revered, with not...

The first time I heard about clearing statements I thought it was absolute garbage. Saying a sentence, one that does not even make sense, and having a belief actually leave your body. No. There was a real resistance in me, which probably came from being told my whole life that nothing is allowed to be that easy. And then it worked. This one walks through what the statements are and where they came...

This is my favourite thing to teach and I do not think enough people talk about it. Heart brain coherence is breathing into your heart, and that is it. No numbers, no counts, no rules about how long. Put your hand or a couple of fingers where your heart is so your brain knows where you are aiming, slow the breath down, and let it settle into a rhythm. The reason it works is that the heart sends mo...

This is the simplest version of how I see us. Your mother has her codes, your father has his, and when they make you, you take some of theirs and you arrive with your own as well, whatever you believe that part comes from. Then life starts. Every experience, every belief, every reaction in the house around you carries its own code, and yours change as they meet them. Some merge, some dissolve, som...

Luminescence is light without shadow. It is the happy part of light with all the good bits still in it. The way we read colour is by wavelength, the shorter the wave the brighter the colour, and our own frequency is measured the same way. As a light body having a human experience you can never be pure light, or you would not be here, so the work is to get as high as this body allows. And then what...

The nurturer closes the Maven journey. She is the one standing with her arms wide open, ready for whoever walks in, holding a space where somebody can say the thing out loud and not have it handed back to them. Most people have had that go badly at least once, so the safety matters more than the advice. A good nurturer does not heal you or tell you the answer, she guides you towards the place wher...

The empath is the one who feels it. Not just their own emotions but everybody else's, the unspoken parts, the things people are not saying out loud. It is not always a gift and it is not always fun. The line between what is yours and what belongs to the room can disappear, and if you do not know how your body absorbs, you will end up drained and unwell and wondering how you got there. So a lot of...

The visionary is the one who goes first. They are looking at the horizon instead of the room, and they can hold a picture of something that has never existed and walk towards it with nothing to prove it is possible. People will call that having your head in the clouds. It is the opposite. It is the only reason anything new has ever arrived. What I find most interesting about the visionary is that...

The artist is the bridge between what you know you think and what you have no words for. I looked up the actual definition of art before I recorded this and what struck me is how wide it is. You can be an artist landscaping a yard. You can be an artist baking a cake. You can be an artist making a beautiful spreadsheet. It is not about paintings, it is about what comes out of you and the way it com...

The mentor is where the Maven journey starts, and it is not the person you go out and find. It is the one already in you. We all look outside ourselves at the beginning and I did that for a long time, because there was so much I did not know that I needed somebody further along to show me. What I understand now is that the codes were already there. The mentor within is the part of you that has bee...

The Maven arrived a few months before this as an image, then as the word, then as everything sitting behind it. She is a seeker of truth and a keeper of secrets, somebody who has gone far enough into a thing that she is no longer standing outside it. This is the opening of a six part journey towards that. The five archetypes I use are hiding inside the word itself, M A V E N, and each one carries...

It took me about fifteen takes to say one sentence at the start of this, and I left every one of them in. We think we have to arrive polished before we are allowed to share anything, and what people actually feel is the part we cut out. So this is the uncut version. It is about creating, and what creating had quietly turned into for me. I am good at it, it is easy for me, and every time something...

The last few days had been hard and I wanted to talk about it while I was still in it. There is a whiteboard behind me with everything I have created in two and a half years written on it, and there is a lot. Every one of them started with a clear idea and real momentum, and somewhere along the line the momentum went and I either pushed through or wandered off to the next thing. So this time I wen...

I discovered Dark Consciousness a few weeks ago, the concept of it has not only blown my mind, but has literally given me a new reason for existing.  No more healing, no more struggling, no more following everyone else and keep up with what the tribe is doing. The current light grid is shadowed and draws on what already exists, whereas in the Dark I can create something new. I use Shadow Alchemy t...