The Spiritual Shitshow Podcast

Send us Fan Mail Family estrangement is a kind of grief that doesn’t fit neatly into the usual boxes. When the person you miss is still alive, still nearby, and still tangled up in your history, the sadness can feel endless and strangely invisible. I open up about my own rupture, what it cost me to leave an emotionally abusive and financially abusive relationship, and the deeper family fallout tha...

Send us Fan Mail You are not here to become someone else. That is the heartbeat of this Spiritual Shit Show solo, where I get blunt and tender about what self-love actually is and what it is not. If you have been treating your healing like a constant self-improvement project, consider this your reset: the whole journey is learning how to love yourself, not fix yourself into a perfect, polished, “e...

Send us Fan Mail Your nervous system might be the real narrator of your life and if it never learned safety, it will keep writing every scene like a threat is coming. We get honest about what it feels like to live revved up all the time, how that shapes relationships and self-image, and why “doing more healing” can turn into another survival strategy instead of real relief. I walk through the turn...

Send us Fan Mail Your life can fall apart and still be a gift, but only after you stop trying to rebuild the same old version of you. I’m sharing the raw story behind a major rupture in my world: building a successful dance studio in my twenties, living in nonstop pressure, then being forced to walk away and losing far more than a job. When the community disappears, the identity dissolves, and the...

Send us Fan Mail The weirdest part of healing is when it finally works. The chaos quiets down, your nervous system stops scanning for danger, and instead of instant bliss you feel… disoriented. If you’ve spent years doing therapy, trauma healing, inner child work, journaling, retreats, plant medicine, and personal development, that empty space can mess with your head. Your mind starts whispering:...

Send us Fan Mail Healing can feel amazing right up until it starts to feel like a drug. On 4/20, we play with the idea of “getting high” in a different way: getting so hooked on personal growth, therapy, journaling, shadow work, manifestation, and spiritual work that we forget how to simply live. If you have ever thought, “I have done the work… so now what?” you are going to feel seen.  We dig int...

Send us Fan Mail Your mind can understand what happened and still feel hijacked by it. That’s the reality of rupture and repair, and it’s why I keep coming back to the nervous system. When a relationship breaks, a family bond strains, or grief hits out of nowhere, the hardest part isn’t always the story. It’s the body reliving the charge through triggers, contraction, panic, numbness, or sudden te...

Send us Fan Mail The fastest way to lose yourself is to confuse your role with your essence and the slowest way back is learning who you are without the title. I’m recording from my dining room table, no lights and no performance, because this story needs the kind of honesty that can actually hold it.  I start with a question that can change everything: what identity feels most comfortable for you...

Send us Fan Mail The fastest way to feel lost is to forget how supported you are and the fastest way back is to remember where you can actually touch that support. We’re sharing a recorded April channeled message from Julie Nguyen titled “The Great Remembering: See The Light,” and it lands like a calm hand on your shoulder when the world feels loud. We explore what “the guides” really are, not as...

Send us Fan Mail A polished life can look convincing from the outside, but your nervous system knows the truth. Today I’m sharing something tender and unfinished: how losing my mom when I was three still ripples through my life, even 44 years later. I walk through the memory as I hold it, the sensory snapshots, the confusion, and the quiet ways grief keeps resurfacing when I least expect it. I als...

Send us Fan Mail Close your eyes, slow your breath, and step onto a beam of light that carries you beyond the skyline, past the clouds, and into the quiet of space—then home again to a future that feels both surprising and familiar. We guide you through a calm, evocative meditation designed to lower stress, widen perspective, and help you meet a wiser version of yourself who has already lived thro...

Send us Fan Mail We share the story of walking away from a 17-year dream and the long desert that followed, where anger, grief, and panic became guides instead of enemies. We show how somatic therapy, self-forgiveness, and honest permission to feel helped us stand again. • why spirituality can feel messy and human • the earthquake moment that ends an old life • the cost of refusing to let go of id...

Send us Fan Mail We trace Julie’s path from burnout to embodied success and guide a full future self meditation that turns vague goals into grounded choices. Listeners learn to choose a physical anchor, ask focused questions, and align ambition with what actually feels true. • chasing goals without fulfillment • strategy versus soulful alignment • guided future self visualization • noticing sensor...

Send us Fan Mail Ever feel like you’re sprinting toward your dream life while your body quietly begs you to slow down? We dig into the quiet power of “chop wood, carry water” and show how ordinary actions can become the most reliable engine for extraordinary growth. Instead of pushing harder, we walk through a grounded approach to manifesting that starts with taking honest inventory of what you al...

Send us Fan Mail Ever feel the surge of clarity after journaling, meditating, or a retreat—only to get smacked by an old trigger and wonder if anything worked? Julie Wynne takes us straight into the messy middle where growth actually happens, unpacking why resistance spikes right after momentum and how to meet it without making it mean you failed. Using the vivid metaphor of life as a video game,...

Send us Fan Mail Healing explains the past, but it doesn’t automatically teach you how to live. Julie opens up about the strange calm that follows years of inner work—the moment when the breakthroughs slow, the nervous system keeps scanning for danger, and you wonder if stillness means you’re stuck. Instead of chasing one more revelation, we explore how to cross the bridge from healing to living w...

Send us Fan Mail The headlines keep peeling back layers, and many of us feel the ground tremble under what used to seem solid. I open the door to a different kind of stability: a living life review that softens the grip of stubborn righteousness and rebuilds identity from love, not armor. Instead of pouring energy into outrage alone, we trace the mirror back inward and ask a brave question—what am...

Send us Fan Mail What if healing isn’t about deleting the past, but letting love reshape it into something you can live with—beautifully? Today we sit with the hard truth that control can’t finish what love begins. We talk about the hidden contracts we make with healing—find the root, pull it out, be done—and why that plan stalls when our hearts are still gripping righteousness, the apology we nev...

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Send us Fan Mail What if the most powerful move you can make today is to stop trying to fix yourself? We open a spacious, honest conversation about radical acceptance, the limits of constant self-improvement, and how love transforms in ways hustle cannot. Instead of stacking more tools and tasks onto an already full life, we practice letting the present moment be enough and discover the quiet inte...

Send us Fan Mail What if release isn’t about walking away, but turning toward what hurts with disciplined love? We explore a deeper meaning of shedding—one that doesn’t erase the past or abandon old selves, but repairs what was left unloved so energy can finally complete. Instead of glamorizing cutoffs and calling it growth, we break down how avoidance keeps the charge alive and why resentment qui...

Send us Fan Mail What if “higher self” wasn’t mystical at all, but the calm, intentional version of you that shows up when you slow down and choose what truly matters? We’re getting real about the loop of self-doubt, scarcity, and rushing—and how to step out of it with small, repeatable choices that reshape your days. We start by naming the lower-self patterns most of us know too well: harsh self-...

Send us Fan Mail The ground is moving beneath our feet, and it’s not random. We’re living through a necessary dismantling of fear-based systems and a surge of creative, sovereign energy that wants to build something truer. I talk about how to navigate this moment with clarity: using astrology as affirmation instead of fate, closing the gap between the lower self and higher self, and making daily c...

Send us Fan Mail Ever notice how the loudest part of healing gets all the airtime while the quieter phase slips by unspoken? Today we sit in that softer space and trace a turning point: the moment the question changes from “what did this take from me?” to “what did this give me?” That small shift reframes a lost career, family tension, and the exhausting tenderness of caregiving into a fuller stor...

Send us Fan Mail Ever notice how 2016 keeps popping up in your feed? We tap that collective throwback as a purposeful lens, walking through a nine-year cycle to ask braver questions: Who was I then, who am I now, and what wants to be honored next? With warmth and straight talk, we guide a reflection that trades trivia for integration, inviting you to place a hand on your heart, trace the arc of yo...