Tripping Over Myself the podcast

A short reflection from the very beginning of this story. I was thirteen when I first discovered what silence felt like — and I mistook it for peace. Looking back now, I can see how anxiety and alcohol were already shaping each other long before I understood either of them. Take care of yourself.

Most of the time, you don’t realize you’re helping people while you’re doing it. You’re just trying to stay sober, show up, and do the next right thing. It’s only when you look back that you start to see the impact you’ve had. In this short episode, I talk about the quiet ways we give back without even knowing it — through responsibility, integrity, and the small choices that make life better for...

A reminder that the quiet things you do every day might be helping someone more than you realize.

Stop Solving Fiction We spend half our lives trying to solve problems that don’t actually exist. In this episode, I open up about how my anxiety began—not with reality, but with the "fiction" I created about myself and the world. I talk about the trap of replaying "harmless" thoughts until they become unsolvable problems, and how we can stop feeding the internal scripts that drain our energy. If y...

A short moment of calm before the week begins. Take a breath, let the noise settle, and start fresh.

🎙 Episode 16 — The Lies We Tell Ourselves In this episode of Tripping Over Myself, I explore the strange connection between addiction, anxiety, and the way we talk to ourselves. I look at how the mind can act like its own form of artificial intelligence — answering whatever questions we feed it — and how, inside alcoholism and anxiety, those answers can quietly turn into fiction we start living by...

Sometimes the mind doesn’t want truth — it wants confirmation. In tonight’s short bonus, I share how the questions we ask ourselves can keep us anxious, stuck, and believing things that were never true. Full episode on Wednesday.

Before alcohol… before gambling… before any of the obvious addictions… there was something deeper driving it all. The need to be noticed. In this episode, I talk about how chasing attention, approval, and a sense of belonging led me into a life filled with drinking, gambling, and smoking — three addictions all tied to one belief: that I wasn’t enough as I was. From owning racehorses to chasing win...

Before alcohol… there was something else driving me. The need to be seen. This Sunday bonus is a short preview of this week’s episode — where that need led me, and what it nearly cost me.

Friendship isn’t always what it looks like on the surface. Sometimes we build friendships around the wrong things — the wrong comfort, the wrong habits, the wrong kind of silence. In this episode, I talk about the friendship I formed with addiction, how it became my escape, my constant, and eventually the thing that nearly took my life. I share the moment everything changed: the coma, the machines...

What happens when the thing hurting you feels like the only thing there for you? In this short bonus, I share a moment that changed how I saw addiction — not as an enemy, but as something that once felt like a friend. This Wednesday’s episode tells the full story.

In this episode, I explore the kind of loneliness that doesn’t come from being alone, but from the stories we tell ourselves about who we are and what we deserve. During the stillness of recovery, I began to see that loneliness wasn’t my home — it was the place I’d been hiding. This episode looks at how loneliness shows up in addiction, in silence, in pressure, and in the moments when we feel unse...

A short Sunday night reminder that loneliness isn’t always about who’s around you — sometimes it’s the story your mind keeps repeating. Take a breath tonight. Episode 14 arrives on Wednesday.

Before you listen to the rest of this podcast, I wanted to share a bit about who I am and why I do this. This isn’t built on theory or something I studied — it’s built on lived experience with anxiety, addiction, and everything that comes with it. I’m not here because I’ve figured everything out. I’m here because I haven’t. And this podcast is just me sharing what I’ve learned along the way — in t...

In this episode, I return to the early weeks of my hospital stay — a time when everything I used to rely on was stripped away. With no routines, no escape, and nowhere left to hide, loneliness hit harder than ever. But in that exposed place, something unexpected happened: real connection began to break through. From the doctors and nurses who showed up without judgment, to the family who travelled...

Part 2 of the loneliness series. This is where everything changed. Full episode drops Wednesday. Follow so you don’t miss it.

Title: Loneliness Before the Bottle Not the kind where you're physically alone — but the kind where you feel disconnected even in a room full of people. Alcohol creates the illusion of companionship. The drink in your hand feels like friendship — until it wears off and leaves you hollow. I drank to stay lonely. And in that loneliness, I mistook it for comfort. This episode is about what came b...

I didn’t realize I was dying. I thought I was just sick... just hungover... just going through something I could handle. This moment marks the point when everything fell apart — when I was caught between a hospital bed and denial, unaware that I had been given only days to live. This isn’t a story about strength. It’s about what happens just before you’re forced to face the truth.

The only real judgment that exists is the one we place on ourselves. I wrote this down the morning we left for Portugal. My anxiety about flying had been building for a week. And on top of it, I was tangled up in worry about our little rescue dog, Frankie — how would she handle a flight from Canada to Portugal? The mind can't drain the anxiety swamp once it starts filling it. You drown in "what if...

In this episode, I open up another layer of the story — the moments we hide, the choices we question, and the quiet truths that shape who we become. Episode 9 looks at the turning points that force us to confront ourselves with honesty, even when it’s uncomfortable. It’s about awareness, accountability, and the small shifts that change everything. If you’ve been following the journey so far, this...

After receiving a life‑changing letter, Gerard enters the hardest stretch of his journey yet: the waiting. In this episode, he talks about the days that felt like years, the fear that settled into every quiet moment, and the urge to escape the pain the only way he used to know how. With a newborn at home and three lives hanging in the balance, he forces himself to face the truth sober — one cigare...

Episode 7 – The Letter In this episode, I read from my first book Tripping Over Myself and share the moment that shook my life at its core — the day a letter arrived that changed everything. What began as a normal trip to the mailbox turned into fear, panic, and the kind of uncertainty that makes the world feel unsafe in an instant. I talk about shock, silence, and what it’s like to carry somethin...

Comfort Becomes A Cage —Episode 6 – Spoken sticky notes on anxiety and alcoholism. Short, real stories from my life. No filler, just the moments that matter. 2–4 minutes. New episode every Wednesday. What starts as relief can quietly turn into routine. In this episode, I share how alcohol stopped being something I used and became something I lived inside—and how avoidance slowly replaced direction...

In this episode, I continue Chapter One of The Trails and Trials of Addiction and Anxiety and talk about how my first drink felt like relief — and how that relief slowly became a way of avoiding life. I reflect on how anxiety, loss, and the need to fit in shaped my relationship with alcohol, and how uneventful days quietly turned into years I didn’t know I was losing. This is a story about trading...

"I used to think that the first drink I ever took was a mistake. But looking back, it didn't feel like a mistake at all. It felt like relief." "When you’ve lived your whole life with constant noise in your head, silence feels like safety. But for me, that silence was a trap. I thought I was learning how to survive, but really, I was just learning how to disappear." "In...